PRIINCESS .miie

just the way i am ..

2011-05-22T16:29:00.006+08:00

this is my cat .. my fat and black cat .. at 1st , it was normal to see him slp in this position of cos ..
but ....

ii noticed . his mouth was opened . LOLS" wadd siia . ji tao slpt like a human larhhs .

OREO STAR ! okiies , iim like a fucking kiddo .. but ehhs , this was used to be my favourite breakfast okiies .. mum will always re-stock my oreos from ntuc .. rmb that oreo biscuits comes in boxes of 9 packets ? YEA , mum bought like 3 boxes each time cos 1 glass of milk , ii'll eat arnd 3-4 packets depending on my appetite ^^. so ii saw this at some 7-11 for $2 & bb bought for me .. hehes ..

my awesome breakfast .. hehes"

NEVERLAND ! wow .. ii duno when's the last time ii've been there .. but well . it was supposed to be a chill-out session .. ended up in neverland . & WTF . ii wore slippers & looked damn plain can .. luckily ii had my eyeliners on .. lols"

this should be like the picture of the day . SO COOL .. bb was like .. "have seen before lollipop with beer ?" den he burst into laughters .. at 1st , ii waas puzzled by wadd he meant , but when ii saw , ii cant help but LOL too .. guessed who's the star of the night ?

SHI HUI ! henry's gf .. hahhs" cute siia .. we had tequila shots & she stayed in this position for quite awhile so ii snapped ..

5 - 10 , 5 - 10 ..

"LOSE ! BOTTOMS UP !"

CUTE RYTE ?? hehes .. ii wish everytime iim drunk , ii will be giggling here and there lorhhs .. LOLS"

well , ii noe it seems that we have some misunderstanding in the past .. cos too be honest , iim happy that you guys will still ask about me .. in fact , iim just ur friend's gf .. you can call me petty or waddeva fuck .. but like ii said . you're my bf's friends .. ii always think wadds best for him .. if other ppl's birthday , ii have to fork out money den where the fuck are all of you when it comes to my bf's birthday ? wahhs . ppl's bday , present 1 person $30 , 2 person $60 . hate ur bunch of act rich friends . 2-face ppl in fact .. ii noe who are good who are not .. ii have eyes to see and a heart to feel .. forget about birthdays celebration man .. got heart arhhs . you sure will open ur mouth and suggest something .. if you forget and after you made up for it . its okiies you noe .. but if you simply dun give a fuck & selfishly think for urself or rather give selfish ppl psycho you to do the wrong .. den really can fuck urself lorhhs .. btw , iim referring to the others of his grp of friends .

ppl who noe me well , will understand my every rational .. especially when it comes to me being pissed .. when you're wrong , you dun1 to admit .. dun expect me to give a fuck .. AROMSIA

ii wonder if you can notice his eyes are red & mine is pink .. its I-fairy lens :)

ii love you bb <3 <3

DEADOLL.

chiong si bo ??

2011-05-15T17:11:00.004+08:00

watched this ytd at serangoon nex shaw .. ii prefer cathay though =X but bb surprised me with these 2 tickets .. hehes .. so we had pasta mania for dinner den play L4D2 den watch our show :)

went to rebel on a saturday night .. 7th May in fact .. our finances are planned so our activities are planned in advance too .. when ii finally able to go with b .. there was guest dj :( so its a trance night .. not that ii hate trance but ii prefer rnb after sooooooo long . & yea .. that night was meant to be just me & you :)

this boy arhhs .. never fail to cut his fruits >:(

so ii snap and zi lian .. hahhs"

ii love to spend time with you .. having serious chats .. though we quarrel almost everyday like hell .. but ohhs well .. ii still love you :)

when we reached the entrance of rebel .. howard saw us .. den we smk .. alan was there too .. they went tgt actually .. den later mag came ..

& den we party and party and party and party .. but erms ... ii kinda broke loose later on .. arhahhs" okiies .. bb was sick .. like literally ill ii mean .. but ii was so happy that he still went down with me :)

bb arhhs , though the both of us have a very bad temper .. but ii hope our love is strong ... my life had too many roller coasters .. ii needed a simple life .. you noe .. just work in the day ... after work .. go for a drink with you .. or watch tv with you .. you noe .. just sit on the sofa and hug you .. ii feel so loved ... the most painful thing is to quarrel with you .. really . no joke .. hate it to the max .. waste of energy and tears .. our 1yr is coming .. hope all our plans will go well .. love you :)

DEADOLL.

Boomboomshakeshake .. Now drop !

2011-05-06T12:08:00.001+08:00

Arhahhs" 2mr is Saturday . Is REBEL DAY :D can't wait can't wait ! Hehes .. Wanted to like head down to asylum after clubbing but bb need to head home early to rest cos he need to wake up early on Sunday :( BUTTTTTTT .. It's okiies :D it's been a long time since we really really had a great time at the club .. I'm gonna make up Chiö Chiö .. Tong my hair Chiö Chiö . Muahaha .. A couple of friends will be arnd too . But not joining them for drinks .. Rather drink our own . Hate to drink ppl's drink , worse I DON'T KNOW who the fuck he is ..

Bb was like "you think we got no money must depend on ppl mehhs" . & like YARHHS ! I not that cheapo leiis pls .. It will be a good & fun nyte 2mr :) I'll punch anybody who screw my night . ESP Michelle ng :) provided she's there .. But I think she won't cos she's too humji ? Hahhs! Waddeva ..

Ytd watched fast & furious with bb at Bishan .. Walaus ehhs . Power arhhs ! I'm from sleepy mode .. Ji Tao became awake .. Fucking cool larhhs .. Den bb was like "bb , I want car .. I want car" -.- as if I'm doraemon . Lols" hope you pass ur tp bb , den i got car car sit . Hehehes" den I can throw my shopping bags in the car .. SONG ARHHS ! Lols"

After eating mos burger , we went for smks den went to the arcade to pass our time . At the entrance , I saw this hello kitty machine . Effing cute pls .. Bb , can I have 1 at home ? ^^. lmao .

I want that big prize :(

& that whole machine as well ! Hahhs"

Was reading pxdkitty few days back about the haters comment thing . & it's so bloody true . The haters care that's why they stalk & seemed to know every shit about you like even more than ur friends . Fucking sick ! Get a life man ..

Boring ! Gonna repaint my nails tonight .. So bored when b's not arnd .. Boo ...

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Location:Airport Rd,,Singapore

Hold me when I fall , touch me with ur lips .

2011-05-03T12:19:00.002+08:00

Last Thursday , I was on mc .. On Wednesday , I'm already having bad headaches . Pop panadols & it nv seemed to help . So annoying .. So on Thursday bb actually cancelled his whole day of schedule just to accompany me see the doctor .. SO SWEET OF HIM ^^. I didn't expect him to do so at this pt of time .. But he did .. So he accompany go eat at compass point den see the doctor at polyclinic .. The almost 2hrs wait totally pissed him off . Lols"

Friday went back to work .. Den LONG WEEKEND :) on Saturday I went to uncle Jeffrey's to do my hair .. It was sooo bad .. I cut my fringe .. Chop my ends . I pretty like my new look .. Hahhs"

Okiies . We to town after my work on Friday .. Damn freaking tired .. But it's okiies . As long as we make our time well spent ^^. Surprisingly we didn't catch a movie .. We ate burger bench and bar again . It's just so yummy .. I totally love it when we always have the same thing in mind ..

So you see he's holding the ice cream ? So the story goes like ..
Me : bb , you want to eat ben & jerry's ?
Jervis : *no answer* but walking towards ben & jerry's -.-

Walaus ehhs .. Ji Tao horhhs . Cannot maintain lehhs .. Ppl 好心 ask whether want ice cream .. Wahhs! Ji Tao nv answer , scare the ben & jerry's close shop like that .. just walk towards it only . Kns .. But sibei cute lorhhs .. I keep laughing non stop . Hahhs"

Don't know give who whack until like that .

The hand on the head siia .. SO CUTEEEEE ! My cat really pattern many many man .

Saturday , I said I did my hair ryte .. Den went town meet that one .. Lols" my bb larhhs . Not a good start .. argue argue argue .. Ate ajisen ! :) 1 of my favourite .. Hehes .. Too bored while waiting for my ton toro so I ......

Snap ..

Snap .. Snap ..

Snap .. Snap .. Snap ..

Then ... We went to take neoprints for our 9mths ;)

MUACKKS ^^.

Interesting movie . Before our show , we played L4D2 for 2hrs .. Wahhs . Sibei dulan cannot finish the new stage .. Another 2 players always die so fast . Left 2 of us .. How to finish siia .. Den 1 stupid player still vote for advance . LOLS" normal already he die lorhhs . Still want advance -.- wth .

Den at the counter , this I-call-her-bitch .. Kept gossiping about my shoe . Actually I find it weird .. Are ppl admiring my shoes or wadd ? You look nvm . You gossip and ask ppl to look den you got prob already . Maybe it's just "pai kuan" that I sibei dun like ppl to look at me . I dun give a fuck you think I ugly , pretty , tall , very tall or waddeva fuck , just DON'T LET ME KNOW you're staring at me . Worse fucking hell , trying to act like you turning behind to look at something end up got caught . Walaus .. I will just fucking say you lorhhs . Irritated ..

My lovely surprise from love ♥♥

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:Defu Avenue 1,,Singapore

EffingBoredWithoutBb-Sunday

2011-04-25T12:25:00.002+08:00

Bb in camp .. Boo .. Boring .. Woke up with a bad headache & didn't wanna do anything . Slack & nua until 2plus .. Went to my bro's new place with mum & dad .. Damn siians lorhhs .. Ended up chatting with bb on the phone there . Lols

Can't wait for another weekend to come . When I have money ! Lols" money face .. Alot of things to buy man .. Bro's wedding coming .. Need to get a pair of heels , some Chiö accessories .. Get some nail stuffs . Still thinking wadd design to do for my nails .. I duno wadd to do with my hair but I'm definitely getting a haircut on Sunday . SUPER CUI arhhs .

Ohhs yes , I bumped into Maggie .. So long nv see her .. I did thought of asking her out but duno wadd stopped me .. Den end up she said she was waiting for Howard .. So , I'm like yea horhhs .. I kinda forgot about him . Hahhs"

I realized most of my friends have this similar thing in them .. When they're filled with probs .. 1st qn they will ask .. "berdd , how ? Can you tell me how ?" hahhs"
Den I will start my ah ma tales & "words of wisdom" .. Den end of the day , they will still do things their way . Sometimes dun you think it's annoying when someone ask you for suggestions & advice den end up ur words seem to be not helping cos she will eventually do things the way she want ?

But I think that's wadd friends are for ryte ? To listen .. To blabber something just to make the heartbroken one at ease . Hahhs" ^^.

My dinner ; PASTA :D

One of my favourite .. Mum didn't cook so I hafta cook dinner myself & I thought AH-HA ! I can eat pasta ^^.

I'm getting alittle over obsessed with myself & bb's not happy about it .. I'm like complaining why I'm so ugly . Why I dun have this . Why am I this & that . Arghhhh ! Screw all my shit man .. I need exercise :(

Imissyoumyboy ♥
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Location:Defu Lane 9,Singapore,Singapore

To be or not to be ?

2011-04-21T12:17:00.002+08:00

Okiies , I Noe I'm like dead cos it's been fucking ages since I last blogged . I suddenly feel that whenever I log in I have nth to talk about anymore . I duno why . Have I became more closed in sharing my experiences or just feel like keeping my door shut ? I duno .. But I Noe during these mths of no updates here , I had fun .. I cried .. I went thru work stress .. Haven had my ultimate fun but yea .. It's coming :)

For a period , I was head over heels about paramore's lead singer's freaking pink hair . I simply love that pink ♥♥ Everyday , I'm like day dreaming to dye that colour but we all Noe not every Asian fits blond shades .. This is like strawberry blond .. If only I could bleach myself & be as milk white as evanescence's Amy lee . Woots! Baby is so gonna kill me cos he would prefer me tanned . But I'm like HELL NO , I mean I dun mind being tanned but being fair I think is pretty much of my choice ;) You can dye all kinds of blond shades . Hahhs" For now , I want to dye blond also must think twice . My hair is getting brittle :( & I got a fucking hole on my scalp .. I hope it'll recover soon .. I wanna change my hair colour leiis .. Baby was like "yayaya , wait till it recovers" .. BUT , when the hell den will it fully recover ?? Next lunar new year ?? Gosh .......

Love my pink hello kitty pill box ♥♥♥ Hahhs" I went to see the doctor at punggol clinic & got some pills to consume .. So it kinda struck my mind that I need a pill box or rather I want it too . Told bb about it & he was awesome to not hesitate to agree . Saw this last one at plaza singapura and bb bought it :) Thinking about it , actually he was very sweet when I kinda made a fuss that I "need" the pill box and it must be awesome looking , not those anyhow kind with random compartment here & there .. Big & small . I Noe I'm very fussy . & so , it makes me feel happy that he actually will dote me .. Though it's something small . But it's the heart that counts . He could've rejected me & say just get a normal one ryte .. Hahhs"

Our 8th mth , we watched this at the esplanade :) it's our 1st time there & we were pretty excited .. It's really really rare to find someone who appreciates a play .. Or a musical show .. Ppl usually thinks it's pricey & boring & probably the which show would doze them off .. But I should say we enjoyed this 2hr play .

It was in Cantonese so at 1st bb was worried that he might not fully understand but there was subtitles and it helped him there . Glad to see him laugh :) can't wait to watch another play again .

We only dress up on 2days ;)

This was taken in cine's burger bench & bar . The price is definitely worth it ! I finished all the food . Hahhs" it was our 1st time there too ;) I ate a chilli soft shell crab . Not very spicy but damn awesome ! I think bb ate some beef burger but ofcos they specialize in beef over there ..

Everyday work work WORK .. at night bb will come over and lepak .. Watch tvb dramas .. Play games . Sounds boring horhhs ? But it doesn't matter , as long as we're happy .. As long as we're beside one another .. Eat dinner tgt . Watch tv tgt . Bring lucky down for strolls tgt .. Serious talk tgt .. I Noe it's weird when said "serious" talk . That's cos I can't take jokes ? Yea , I'm petty , waddeva . But at least I talk with sense .. I rather serious talk with him for hrs than to listen to craps and I'll get sick of it for 1min ?

Narak Mai ? He loves to carry blackie like a baby .. SO FUCKING CUTE !! ♥♥♥♥

*SORINI EASTER EGGS FROM THE COCOA TREES*

Recently , met 2 of my ladies .. Sylvia & ling .. I went all the way to jurong pt after work .. Fucking shagg ! But cos ling's exams round the corners so she didn't wanna waste time on traveling .. I spent about 1hr 45min traveling from hougang ? Lols" had a dinner , chat for awhile . & I left at 10 .. Tired siia . But happy to meet her up at least :)

My yakitori dinner at jurong pt . When is the last time I ate this ? 2yrs back ? Hahhs"

Met Sylvia 1 night after her tuition & we actually had a walkathon .. We walked from compass point to anchorvale cc . From there she brought me to 3parks . After walking all , 1hr was gone . Lols"

Brought me to this mangosteen .. Telling me about the surrounding plants are water plants . Lols"

Love her to bits ♥♥ Though she's always busy *roll eyes* hahhs"

Went to Mac to grab something to eat .. Tried the new mcgrill chicken salad .. Not too bad .. But I duno if it's worth the price , $6.65 and it comes with a drink . Of cos there wouldn't be any fries cos it's meant to be healthy ? Hmms ...

We've been playing sports recently . So far , table tennis & badminton . I think we prefer badminton for now :)

Recently Michelle ng is back on track .. My haters are really my loyal fan . Spent almost 9mths stalking us & invading our privacy for I duno wadd ? I mean use ur fucking pea brain , wadd do you gain from all ur endless efforts ? So wadd if you hacked my email & tried to be funny by sending a voicemail sms to him saying I cheat on msn ? It is very lame indeed . Try harder bitch .

Seriously , I duno wtf you want from us when we're like going to be tgt for a year & you're still pathetically down there acting like a kid trying to break us apart . Feel happy that we quarrel . I will hunt you down & fucking whack you myself man . I think you got fucked not enough man . Not enough den go & be legendary prostitute in geylang . Everybody will applaud for you . Really . You're just shameless anyway .

Ohhs . Not to forget . We are going genting with my dearest mum in June . Dun be jealous :) I will try to update my blog just for you to envy . LOLS" __

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Location:Defu Avenue 1,,Singapore

Bye 2010 , hi 2011

2010-12-22T11:02:00.001+08:00

Long time no see arhhs ! 2mths I nv blog Liao .. Busy na ... Now peak period , got Many chocolate fairs arnd Singapore .. Sometimes even busy until ot !

Trying my best to cope with every stress in life .. Be it bb .. Or work , family & friends ... Not forgetting my financial crisis ! Still earning my bucks to pay of debts & enjoy alittle bit with my buibui .. I need to get a life man ! Hahhs" :)

My wonderful planner bought by my wonderful bf for the new year ! We need to plan our budget carefully . Cos of my 21st birthday party which is next year .. I need to save & pay for almost everything .. There'll gonna be 2 parts .. A birthday bash at the clubs exclusively for my girls . & a great gathering cum birthday celebration at a chalet .. Details will come in next mth :)

When there's trust , when there's faith .. There'll be LOVE ..

Ate Sakura for the 1st time with bb .. & when it comes to dessert he touched me by choosing the flavours himself .. He was confident that he would pick the right ones that I like .. & yes ! He did ! :)

This pipi , damn naughty I swear .. Always make me angry .. Make me cry .. There are many unhappy times but happy times should be round the corner . I hope everything will be better in 2011 ..

my little boy
- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:Hougang Avenue 3,,Singapore

UR CRAZY BRAINLESS EX GF !

2010-10-08T17:32:00.001+08:00

This mother farker MICHELLE NG is siao chabor .. My gf ask me put on stomp .. LOLS" I think she forgot her medicine that day .. Duno why I can't be bothered to scold her also .. She sure tio jet again larhhs ..

That email is my baby's acc. Hacked his email I duno for wadd .. Really Si bei Bo Liao .. Pls horhhs . Guys & girls open ur farking eyes & dun get to Noe this slut .. I told you she didn't give up .. Sore loser -.-

Den I knock off and log out .. Siao chabor..
Pls arhhs girls , dun let such sluts go near ur bf .. Disgusting virus ..

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:Defu Avenue 1,,Singapore

Te amo ..

2010-09-26T19:28:00.001+08:00

Did my nails once more after like damn long cos I'm so lazy .. Hahhs" siians arhhs .. Screw my job man .. I love my job but no one is gonna pay me so I left .. Gonna miss that place & ofcos Jingjing .. She's nicest colleague I have man .. Thanks alot for ur guidance :)

Bye extensions .. Bye eyelashes :( I'll get you soon ..

Baby , brought me to resort world to walk walk .. Next mth den bring me to universal studio .. Hehes .. Interesting .. We took lotsa pictures but still in his cam .. Have yet to upload ..

We took a break at a dessert shop named seventh heaven .. Really cool place to chill after a long walk or day at the resort world .. We drank soup & ate ice cream .. I ordered a flavor that baby loves .. Den I asked him to make a guess :)

Peanut butter :)

We patronized a shop called candylicious .. We bought this .. Fun to play .. But we didn't eat it .. Memories you Noe .. Hahhs"

After which , we head to vivo .. We had alot of fun .. Talking .. Playing .. Went in toysrus and play .. Lols" look at him !

Our photoshoots
More will come on facebook .. Check it out soon ..

I waved my hair for a dinner .. Hahhs"

I'll change for you as you change for me .. Love you baby ..

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:Sengkang E Way,Singapore,Singapore

这么了、你累了、说好的幸福呢

2010-09-13T21:16:00.001+08:00

Wahhs .. Bun came back from Bintan Liao .. Shiok ehhs .. Nov den I go Malaysia with my 大胖 & mama .. At least I not like some ppl say go genting but end up in Bangkok ..

Hehes .. Baby made salad & mushroom soup for me .. Thanks for ur effort my ah bui ;D

Got our pay & spent like no 2mr .. Within days , I'm broke again .. Siians .. I didn't see how much I left larhhs .. Just swipe card like free siia .. Omggg .. Okiies .. But I should be fine .. Next few wks no need to go out Liao .. Anyway baby will be in camp most of the time .. Hopefully I everyday could get some quality sleep . My face getting chui larhhs .. My god .. My health too :( easily tired & sleepy .. Cannot wakeup for work despite sleep quite early ..

Went to alleybar with shihui & Henry .. Love this kinda life actually .. Chill chill & chill .. Den once in a while party like an animal .. Hahhs" i damn guilty .. I'm not by ling's side when she club anymore .. I'm sorry ..

After alleybar went to neverland .. Okiies .. I Noe I created disaster .. I'm sorry .. My bad :(

Steamboat with the ppl !

大胖 !

My ah buy's interesting creation from waddeva he could at the steamboat .. Hahhs" Henry gave him 8/10 .. 5 for effort . Lols!

After dinner , we went to take a stroll to digest .. They are crazy eaters lorhhs . Ate tons of crabs larhhs ! Den while strolling they saw this provision store with shihui's name .. They got so excited & started snapping .. Lols" we stood there like 10min making me afraid that the owners might pissed off to why we kept snapping .. Hahhs"

A night at rebel .. Farking boring ! BOO

Ah bui , I hope we can last like shihui & Henry .. Everyday quarrel & everyday loving .. I will be strong .. I will not give up .. It's true .. We came a long way ..

爱你老公 !
- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:E Coast Rd,Singapore,Singapore

Ima be . Ima be . Ima ima ima be ..

2010-08-23T15:51:00.001+08:00

Na rak maii ? This cupcake is pretty nice .. I used to hate butter cupcakes but this is a thumbs up ! The cake from this store is very expensive when it comes to own customization .. I wanna get my 21st birthday cake from there too

Recently I went to jingjing's dad's birthday dinner .. Felt so weird cos I barely Noe her & her family but their heart warming gestures kept welcoming me to the dinner .. Gladly , I went .. Den I saw her sis who is about 2yrs older than me & she's a mother of 3 .. I was like wow .. In a good way of cos ..

At 22 , one could be happily married .. A housewife .. A mother of 3 .. But on the other hand .. Some ppl that I Noe at 22 , one could be a career woman .. Drives a car .. Branded bags .. Wadd would you & I be at 22 ?

I want to be the boss or shareholder of a beauty salon .. I want to be in charge of the manicure & pedicure booth .. I want to be able to ask my baby to help me handle workers schedule while I handle the accs .. How wonderful & sweet it sounds .. But everything starts from wadd I'm doing now ..

Though I'm learning how to do eyelash extensions .. I still hope they would faster expand a mani/pedi corner .. It's more like my thing isn't it ? Until now , I only did 1 customer by myself .. & I freaking spent 2hrs .. Holyshit ! I not the freak myself out .. Lols"

For now , I'll start with touch ups .. But I still suck .. Once jing is free , I kept pushing customers to her .. Damn mean I Noe .. Haiis .. I feel so helpless

Long time no club on weekends already ! My god .. Wadd is zouk ? Wadd is ratchada ? Wadd is neverland ? Lols" I miss my clubbing kaki ehhs .. Qingling , pingying .. Hahhs" & magmag ..

We'll rock the clubs real soooooon ppl ! && ohhs .. Baby , you promised to pk dance with me

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:E Coast Rd,,Singapore

Blessing in disguise

2010-08-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

Wahhs .. Damn long nv blog already .. Recently I'm working at roxy sq .. Doing eyelash extension .. But Im still learning .. I Noe how to do everything but damn slow .. Do until want to die .. Aiiyo .. My colleague aka partner , Jingjing .. Kept encouraging me .. Everything also say can .. Lols"

So work is not so stressful :) my relationship , I should say hopefully it's getting better .. At least darling & me had a heart to heart talk after a storm .. We quarrel & fight like no 2mr .. But I'm glad that ultimately , we still love each other ..

Baby , pls dun think anymore .. Okiies ? Chan rak khun na ..

Recently got this slut named "MICHELLE NG" trying her luck to get darling back .. Walaus ehhs .. Gan stalker lorhhs ! Cb .. Spotted me & darling in town .. But dare not talk to him .. Why ? Simple .. Cos I'm there .. Knn .. I hate those sluts who Noe the guy got gf still want to try her luck to ruin the r/s .. Disgusting freak of nature can ! I have yet to see ur fugly face but pls look in the farking mirror 1st ! My god .. Only Noe how to seduce ppl .. I'm glad ur bf dump you ! SLUT ! Eewww ! & all ur friends are sluts too .. I wonder if you all are working in geylang .. Call you cannot pick up arhhs ? Busy farking isit ? Pcb ! Still dare to use guy phone msg .. Luckily she stupid arhhs ! She's the most stupid woman I've ever known ..

LOLS" stupid woman! Promoting all her flaws .. Really stupid .. Talk like a kid like that .. I cannot tahan .. So naive ! Well , darling was dumb enough to give this farkedup John my no. So that stupid slut msg & thought is darling .. 真的是 S T U P I D arhhs .. Hopeless whore !

Aromsia ! See she dare to come nearer anot .. Pcb .. Ohhs , but I Noe she will still stalk one .. Crazy whore .. My haters are my fav fans cos they will spend their time to look at my fb & blog .. & if I Noe any more whores come up to front door .. I make sure you dun even Noe which door to leave .. Knn .. I will track you !

Jingjing did my lashes :) I like ! Just that my eye got prob .. Cannot flutter one .. I like my job at least .. Some nice taitai will talk cock with you .. Some irritating fussy auntie will pick .. Ohhs well ..

Baby is still slping ..... Boring .... I told bun that I can't help jing though she's busy & she laughed at me -.- I feel so useless
Aiiya , give me 1 yr , I sure become expert one

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:E Coast Rd,,Singapore

杰伦! 杰伦! 杰伦!

2010-07-29T20:03:00.001+08:00

Last week from mon-thur i went to doug's chalet at pasir ris ave .. The bungalow was humongous ! & only a few of us stayed over ..

Wed is when some of our classmates & schmates would come .. I saw Jöl & her bf .. So happy to see her ! Long time no see .. Then they bbq while I took a short nap as I had an interview on thur which actually didn't do well .. Cos I was stuck for words .. I duno .. Probably not fated with the job ..

I mean the senior accountant was giving me fake smiles .. The accountant was giving me a i-owe-you-money face .. The HR staff gave me the sweetest smile but she wasn't impt there .. Sigh .. I rmb at HDB , I was interviewed by 5 ppl .. So wadds 3 ryte ? The qns suck ! I was totally dumbfolded .. Arghhs . Nvm :)

Lols" I miss out the fun :( I was literally slping there .. Morning go work .. Afterwork go back chalet .. But it kinda trained me to wake up early for work .. Now I'm always on time :D

But I'm still gonna change my job :( boring .. Nth to do .. Nth to learn .. Earning peanuts ..

I was walking along the side smking when I heard some idiot shouting "meow! Meow!" den I was like this person siao .. He literally shouting and not the purr kind .. Den when I'm back , I realized it's Jäirus -.-

- DEADOLL ; blogpress

Location:Selegie Rd,,Singapore

I wonder how , I wonder why

2010-07-23T14:40:00.001+08:00

How's it like to be preparing for marriage I wonder .. How's it like to be proposed by the man you love ? Have you ever wonder how ur loved one will propose to you ? Will he be half kneeling in the shopping mall where hundreds of ppl are looking with a exquisite ring in hand ? Or will he be proposing to you over dinner in an expensive restaurant ? Or isit some funky ideas like a msg by a hot air balloon during a holiday ? Or maybe twinkling words that's displayed from afar on the floor like the stars in the sky ?

& when the ring is on ur finger .. You'll start thinking bout ur dress design .. Do you like a halter bare-back with laces .. Or off-shoulder ? Or a tube .. Would you like a standard white long dress or a gothic punk black mini dress ? Ur wedding theme .. Pink with roses .. Or with a touch of white and lilies .. ? Or even like the black parade .. A goth wedding is so cool .. Sounds so happening .. Hahhs"

How's it like when you've just applied an apartment with ur loved one . Will you start saving from the day you apply ? Or just live as per normal and think ur cpf is sufficient cos ur pay is high ?

How exciting life is going to unfold ...

Hahhs! Na rak Mai ? Ws donated den we got this .. Lols"

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The peace in my heart ..

2010-07-20T15:47:00.001+08:00

Finally I've cleared everything from ur room .. There's a mix feelings of sadness and relief .. Sad that it's a pity .. Relief that the pain discontinued .. I will miss that place .. & to be honest .. Those memories were beautiful .. But still , my life had moved on ..

Ws had made me realize how impt it is to save money .. I've nv felt so relieved financially despite being poor and having debts . He made me want to earn more .. He is a great motivation in me now .. I hope and aim I'll achieve my goals slowly with his help ..

Weekends are always Thai discos or clubs .. No matter wadd .. He always bring me out to at least watch a movie to occupy my weekend .. There's nv a day bored .. Even when sat I'm home .. I'm not bored for once .. I just rest at home .. Do my stuffs .. Am I growing up or isit just for that day ? Hahhs"

Ah pop ! Long time no go V4 Liao .. Ever since sabai close , I damn siians Liao .. V4 so early close .. Lagi siians ! Grand Hollywood open Liao !! Haven got the chance to see see look look ..

Not very clear but that's marina sands .. Cool siia .. I dun mind spending a night or 2 in the whole freaking hotel .. Just swimming arnd , enjoying the scenery .. Damn shiok leiis !!

Shanghai dolly is boring ! Boooo !

The morning sun from pasir ris .. Staying in doug's chalet for these few days .. It'll not be a very exciting and fun stay for me cos everyday I still go to work .. Just that I go over after work and go back to work every morning .. Tiring ! Cos I gotta wake up early incase I miss the 20min interval bus to pasir ris interchange . Gosh ! So slpy now .. Yawns ..

With him arnd , nth is impossible to me .. No matter how hard it is in life .. He made me feel that I can do it .. With his endless support and help throughout those painful days .. My days are indeed a lot brighter .. If not , I think by now .. I'm still sobbing ..

I believe time will tell whether we're meant to be or not meant to be ... I'm just trying to take it as slow as I can :)
Thanks so much ..

I've got an interview soon hopefully it'll turned good and screw my job now .. So Boring ! Really interesting .. I ask my friends to help me look out but its always zero results .. I send one only , next day call me Liao . Kns -.-

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electro rocks !

2010-06-13T22:54:00.004+08:00

Powerhouse on sat was unexpectedly awesome . though ii never like there . & ii seldom go there .. but well .. it was pretty fine .. ii met quite a no. of sec sch mates :)

at vivocity drinking .. so funny .. ii not high again . lols" arai waa .. den that one drink until red na .. kpkb na .. damn irritating when he starts shouting ..

the black society .. lols"

the ppl ..

tee rak . hahhs"

ii saw marcus , ii saw noel , bao hua , sofia & yimin .. woots o.0

recently , iim into electro just like 2yrs back . wow .. those were the days clubbing with shawn & ling .

DEADOLL.

chawp mai ?

2010-06-11T16:37:00.004+08:00

took off for the day .. went snow city with jairus , douglas , his gf , glenn , kai siong & jian hao . snow city is boring as you noe there's only a huge slide where you climb the stairs up with the float den slide down .. but the company was fun :)

my little god bro , siong !

not supposed to snap anything inside .. but ii secretly managed to take 2 . lols"

still x'mas season lorhhs .. its over but how cosy will it be if my home's like that .. hahhs" den after that , we head to boon lay to eat .. den head to tanjong pagar to pass my sis her phone .. den head to bishan meet ws ..

go singapore flyer there to eat popeye ..

nice mai ? ii took it with my cam effects .. though its day , ii can take it like its in the night ..

ws say ii looked like PL with the cap and all my hair hidden .. den he ask me to sms bun say ii cut my hair for the night .. but yea .. she noe ii wouldn't do that .. hahhs"

stupid baobei .. take this when ii was drinking the soup of the mee soto .. she thinks its unglam & funny . but isn't it easier & faster to drink like this than to use the metal spoon & drink bit by bit ? like that more shiok marhhs .. sometimes its good to be urself .. & not pretend to be a good or bad person .. just BE URSELF .. ppl eventually will judge you by the heart :)

pretending to be good is definitely not a good thing .. means you're harming ppl unknowingly cos you're not helping .. you're obligating .. pretending to be bad is not good for urself either .. the damage you'll receive is double .. y ? cos ppl misunderstands you .. they talk about you .. they duno that you're pretending .. & at the end of the day you're just trying to protect ur love one ..

its really tough in life that sometimes we duno how to walk the route anymore isn't it ? nevertheless , ii believe if you do the right things and harm nobody .. god will lead you silently .. yea , sometimes we think this is unfair .. why is this happening to me ? but it happened cos god want you to learn from ur mistake .. & you go crazy when history repeats .. thats becos you nv learn . so who is to blame in the end ?

obstacles in life is to make you stronger regardless of work , love or life .. the same thing can happen again .. BUT when it does , its how you look at it .. do you think its a norm ? or isit something that you think you can handle ?

think again :)

DEADOLL.

bye sabai :(

2010-06-09T00:59:00.004+08:00

friday was ling's 21st birthday .. went to west coast , the infiniti .. its a condo at her sis's place .. ii rushed home .. den rushed down ..

after which , ii went to ratchada as usual .. den to neverland .. ii was sooo fking tired .. that bun's customer sent me back in his cool convertable bmw .. but well , it LOOKS cool .. but my hair ain't .. hahhs"

sat , went rebel .. chey .. actually its pretty much the same as mos .. ii thought wadd so special .. hahhs" den something happened .. made me really pissed .. but iim over it now .. ohhs well .. ii shouldn't bother too much ehhs ..

after rebel , ii left in a huff to sabai .. was so angry & ii was like "baobei ! i damn angry ! come , take pic !" den baobei say "huhhs? angry den take pic?" lols"
she recently also has a foul temper .. ii duno why .. recently alot of ppl are angry ii realised .. really knnbccb arhhs ..

hell lotsa ppl on the last day of sabai .. im gonna miss that place :(

iim trying to move on badly .. ii still linger .. ws was ryte .. ii made myself linger .. ii made myself hold on & made myself like shit .. ii have no mood to work at all .. kept slacking arnd .. falling aslp .. gosh . my supervisor is bound to kick me soon .. hahhs" but well , iim leaving in a bit .. ii need a real accounting job that is able to support myself . my mum asked me ytd "berdd arhhs .. when you want to study arhhs?" ii said ii duno .. not that soon .. why .. she said "ohhs .. ii end of this year want to quit my job .. work until not happy .. ur pay haven come arhhs ? take pay must give me money lehhs" ..

the part of giving her money was no surprise .. but the part where she's quitting her job or take it as a retirement .. is stressing me out .. iim really scare now .. so afraid ii cannot handle the toughness .. but ohhs well .. ii am quite used to it .. ii aim to give her more money so she can settle the house loan as well .. now that iim working in HDB .. ii really sensed her hardship .. so all the more ii need a better job .. ii definitely continue my studies but really not now ..

ii guess if anybody were to stress me on studying , iim gonna quit studying for life lorhhs .. walaus .. ii nd to earn some bucks .. support my expenses , my mama & my everything actually -.-

this year is a funny year for me .. lots of tao hua .. but wealth not good .. as in MY wealth no good .. its quite true ... ii wanna travel ! :(

DEADOLL.

ii give up ..

2010-05-31T23:28:00.007+08:00

CHIO BO ?? hahhs" ii run out of ideas liiaos .. needa crack my brain soon .. hmms .. iim not the cutie type of person but ii bought pink iphone casing cos was hesitating if ii should take black den suddenly bun's words came into my mind .. "why take black , there so many colours you choose black" -.- hmms .. den ii think ii dun take black better ..

cong this motherfking asshole really made me angry dulan pekchek pissed off fed up .. nb ! ii go zouk den kpkb ask me go prawning .. okiies lorhhs .. the following wed ii went .. guessed wadd .. not shy lorhhs that mf .. called his friend to pick me up .. den reach ecp also dun care me .. like ii duno him like that .. den .. out of no where 2 fugly lians joined .. den .. luckily his friend max was nice enough to entertain me all the way .. so max & me went to resort for awhile ..

den ..

after resort , went bishan look for the mf who is prawning .. with a high state cos max is driving and ii have to tah his drinks .. & his friends got nice brains ! ii drink finish my cup den max swopped the glass .. his friend thought he really drank all & of cos they top it up with more martell .. thanks! -.-

wahhs .. think back really giok angry .. new cool stuff ii just learned .. lols" knn .. that mf dun1 send me home .. ask me sit max's car den he send the 2 fugly lians instead .. must've screwed them up along the way .. so disgusting can .. ii dun understand why he attract this kind of materials .. waddeva ..

ii took leave on thur .. met py , mt & sul to take cert from sch .. den went to bugis eat shokudo again with py & mt .. ii forget to take pics with them :( after which , bun called .. so met her up .. hopped into the same bus with her & went to cine to find her love ..

supposed to go PLAY .. but thanks! nice queue! not the queue until the behind behind .. siians ..

so we changed, went to neverland .. felt uber lonely when most of the les got partner :( my baobei go resort .. & thanks .. attituded me for nth . wth ..woo ! went jb with ws on sun .. happy arhhs ! damn long nv go relac liiaos .. we went there for makan , movie & chill .. bun was like "singapore cannot mehhs ?" walaus .. different na .. ii duno why even though is only city sq .. but ii was damn smiley .. damn happy .. even if its like walking arnd looking at clothes .. ii also happy .. cos the purpose is to be out of singapore .. as long as iim out of singapore , ii feel very carefree . ii nd not think of work , love & life ..

just like back then in hongkong .. only need to think wadd to wear .. where to go .. wadd to buy .. shiok na .. no need to think of sch .. work & love .. best .. so yea .. ii slept for 3hrs only but ii was damn energetic in jb till night .. my batt was like 20% liiaos ..

iim not so privileged to sit car .. but well .. at least ii had fun ehhs ..

ws ordered this and said not nice .. so ii exchanged my coffee .. den he was like so-so . den later on , his coffee from some shop also not nice .. ii suggested he jolly well bring out his own water bottle next time .. lols"

thanks for ur support & cheering me up .. you brightened my days :)

saw some shit in fb .. really ccb lorhhs .. that one still talk to his ex gf J lorhhs .. pua .. giok dulan na! ii will nv forget ii last time see his phone .. he msg that cb .. suggested to go sk , her hse void deck drink his dad bought the grey goose .. wahhs .. hot siia .. why he nv fking suggested that to me before ?? serangoon to sk drink with that cb can larhhs .. serangoon to sk eat with me LAZY rather stick ur fking eyeballs to the screens na .. its okiies .. you want drive me crazy .. ii will .. you like to push me away & do lj thing .. its over anyway .. you love it .. you want it .. you dumped me but you lost me not ii lost you .. THOSE WHO HAVE A FKING HEART HAS EYES TO SEE WADD KINDA PERSON I AM & WADD KINDA PERSON YOU ARE .. ii no need to argue with ur friend anymore ..

yea , iim hypersensitive cos iim never secured ..
iim borned with a foul temper .. cos its in the genes ..
but at least iim borned with a heart to go thru shit with you .. & ur thanks are nv accepted .. say only who duno how to say!

& you noe .. god treats me good .. he won't let me suffer for nth one .. just like that bitch who thinks she's very nice to me . backstab me .. brainwashed 4 ppl to dislike me .. too bad .. they hate her now .. ii was so happy to hear the news .. really LOSER .. she's damn pretty .. bishan ite .. psycho me buy the couch wristlet .. can you guess ? hahahhaahaahhhs"

met ms ng for dinner .. missssss her like siiao na .. finally get to meet her ..

love her to the max! :D

naa rak mai ? hahhs"

really .. dun make me crazy .. else ii'll show you wadd is crazy ..

DEADOLL.

pls help me ..

2010-05-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

you recognise him ?

is he happy ?
do we look loving ? do he looked cheerful ?
iim praying to all gods above .. pls heal my andriel .. ii almost lost him to death .. & iim losing him to his illness .. pls return me my andriel .. ii beg you ..

rise and shine ?

2010-05-23T18:43:00.005+08:00

went sabai with baobei .. she emo na .. so ii peii her .. though not very happening .. cos both of us only .. but nevertheless , ii tried my best to cheer her up & entertain her :)

okiies ii noe ii seemed to be MIA for about a mth .. no updates .. no nth .. prolly in fb maybe ... hmms .. but well , after a mth at least you see me feel better .. of cos ii still cry .. but maybe not that often .. at least ii tried to move on with my life .. be it work or play ..

currently iim working in HDB Tampines .. in a nice way , its called assistant administrative excutive. in the simplest explanation of my job scope .. iim a legal loan shark .. hahhs" yea .. just trying to get used to office .. and its pretty cool .. when ii was in sec sch .. ii told myself that ii never wanna work in an office .. but after ii really sit on the chair .. look at the screen .. holding my cup of coffee .. wow .. really interesting ..

had a busy week man .. despite work in the morning .. mon went sabai .. tue went movie .. wed went to phuture .. thur rest .. supposed to go mahjiong or play .. fri went ratchada , supper club & neverland .. my god .. sat met maggie for dinner .. den met bunny for movie den met jerrin at boat quay .. farkiing shag .. later gonna meet my friend also .. gosh .. busy busy ..

ii miss andriel alot .. ii duno wadd the farkk happened to us again .. with my endless effort that always seem to go down the drain .. even his parents dun even wanna bother him .. when he was in & out of hospitals , ii still squeeze time to visit him with dinner .. every time ii mean .. den when ii was working .. & he's at home .. he refuse to meet me for dinner .. thinking that its stupid to travel from serangoon to sk den back to serangoon .. wtf ? den 1 day ii hesitate when iim supposed to visit him at alexandra . is it worth it ? so ii didn't go ..

end up he got pissed at me .. HELLO !? so serangoon to sk back to serangoon is stupid den wadd about sk to alexandra back to sk WITH FOOD ??? farkk siia .. after all these times he still chose his friends & comp over me .. he discharged already rather meet his friends than meet me . when he was in hospital , ii was right in front of him and there he go using my hp msging where his friends were ..

ii have to msg ur friends and ask them go them .. request them to visit you .. & for god's sake ... they farkking visited you ONCE ! iim human also okiies .. iim not ur mother farkiing maid .. do you noe when ii was in office & ii received this msg from him telling me to bring novels for him to read ? HELLO .. iim at work .. okiies .. iim in office .. not at ur home or at home doing nth ..

ii do every single shit for you & at the end of the day you rather stuck ur bloody eyeballs to ur stupid comp and meet ur stupid friends .. THANKS ! ANDRIEL FONG . SCREW YOU !

ii admit to my stupidity .. why ii still love you ? why do ii deserve this ?

DEADOLL.

ii've lost everything ..

2010-04-26T09:50:00.002+08:00

couldn't slp properly at all .. with the cough killing me .. was bad enough .. but waking up in tears makes it worse .. its just so sudden .. the more ii think the more not right .. ii got a feeling you're revenging .. you bear the same grudge .. & you're taking it back on me by putting it in the nicest way .. ii duno how have you revenged on her .. but everything dun sound ryte at all .. too sudden ..

as if you just died .. but apparently you are dead .. ii haven seen the andriel who loves me dearly for quite awhile .. ii duno when .. ii duno how .. why aren't me having a good disorder now ? how wonderful it'll be .. ii nv find it as a joke .. ii nv like to anyway .. so how many bastards had been treating me this way ? should ii blacklist them ? ohhs well , pretty meaningless when end up they hardly realise wadd's wrong ..

ii'll be glad to go bonkers some day .. wadd's wrong ? ii asked myself .. wadd's wrong ? ii dun understand .. how can ur love fade out of nowhere ? out of nowhere ... probably there's another girl .. ii duno who .. how can it be .. but true enough .. ur grp of friends consists of girls but iim nv in the pic .. isn't it funny ? iim not sensitive .. iim always insecure ..

are you happy that ii've got my today ? you are . but you'll nv show anyone else how you feel .. vengeance isn't it ? ii noe ..

DEADOLL.

bored na ~

2010-04-25T16:48:00.004+08:00

my god .. almost every night ii've been sabai-ing .. & bunny thought me some thai words .. iim gonna get influenced for sure .. hahhs" actually thai clubs are not that bad larhhs .. cos its totally different from clubs like zouk .. well at least to me , the singers & band members here are more friendly for sure :)

MAO LIAO !

ah bun ah bun ah bun :)

woots! saw raymond in sabai .. & he said he wanted to call me go powerhouse but didn't .. luckily he didn't call arhhs .. he said it was damn packed .. lols" fun mehhs ..

bird bird complain ii nv take photo with her . actually we took quite a few wadd ..
just knew her , christina .. friendly :) & she didn't saw me on friday when ii think iim just sitting beside her -.- lols"

ah bee ~ ii think she damn cute ehhs .. lols"

recently we both many many prob ehhs .. haiis .. ii think here think there .. also cannot understand why he left me .. really dun ....

DEADOLL.

shattered .. beautifully shattered ...

2010-04-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

my world restarts now ...

"trying to regain the feelings, but it seems everything is gone .."

ii felt like a worthless piece of shit .. that had nv been appreciated .. that had nv been spared a thought for .. games and ur friends .. still more impt .. & you still want to deny .. ii duno why ... stop lying to me will ya !? ii had enough of lies and lies and lies .. all the farkked up ppl with all their lies ..

ii hate it .. ii didn't want it this way .. & then you will think some things just dun go our way .. yarhhs .. waddeva .. cb .. really hurt , angry , sad , waddeva waddeva .. my mum already prepared to see me go drinking for the next few weeks .. saw me cry like farkk . good thing she consoles me and not like my f up sister ..

xb kor and mel is like literally dead .. wadd nice bros ii have .. always ps me .. thanks arhhs !

ii need to build my pr .. face this f up world with plastic .. ii dun1 to be nice anymore .. cos no one appreciates .. end up .. get hurt .. and cheated .. my mum was like "there are so many guys out there . you scare no bf arhhs ?" ii say no .. ii not scare no bf .. ii scare ii cant find another one like him .. and its true .. there's no one like him .. ii dun understand why ii still love him ..

can someone just get me into coma and let me lost all my memories ? better than dying ryte ? so wasted .. & not worth it .. when ii lost all my memories den ii can really restart my life .. NICE :)

DEADOLL.

the rainbow comes out again ..

2010-04-19T17:15:00.005+08:00

went to ratchada and guess wadd ii saw darnick !

den went to sabai saw ben tan .. holy ! its been years since ii last saw him larhhs ..

sabai's bass guitarist ..

sabai's drummer ..
many many patterns arhhs .. hahhs"

everytime go ratchada already den go sabai until they close at 6am den we head for breakfast .. was having breakfast with the singers .. & bunny's friend kept entertaining us with her crazy pronunciation with the language .. hahhs"

we looked pale siia .. cos no heavy make up .. just simple for a sunday night .. been seeing bunny since friday .. hahhs" met her for thai clubs and sat when andriel & ii was at cine about to catch a movie .. she suddenly tap me "ehhs eliz , lend me ur lighter" .. lols" wadd siia .. den we chat awhile until andriel got bored . where he'll do the usual .. squat at a pillar .. den sun met her again . we went to salon .. cos ii wanna dye my hair .. looks damn dark like almost black but he say will fade . it better will ...

damn siians .. my only entertainment is thai clubs now .. meet andriel see him play wow .. den ii play mahjiong on phone . nb ... this thur ii aim to go PLAY with bunny's friend :) she damn cute when she saw me at cine on sat too , she said "pisces rocks ryte ??" LOLS"

die .. have to pay for jay chou tickets already .. ii duno where to find 600bucks .. omfg ... & FML man .. only today den ii saw the email to go for casting for race queen .. gg lorhhs ..

DEADOLL.

iim right .. right ? or am ii wrong again ?

2010-04-12T21:15:00.004+08:00

ii made a decision last night .. to fight for wadd ii lost .. ii noe without his presence was torturing .. for the 1st time in my entire life .. ii finally noe wadd is "insomnia" .. crying adds the extra pain to my head .. iim so afraid ii'll get a tumor in future .. CHOY! not worth it ..

david say nv look back .. but if you do , nv regret .. which is so true .. you only live once .. you can't live in regrets .. only can blame ur life not good .. ii can cheat everyone .. but not myself .. cos ii noe the best how much ii love him .. ii will feel neglected .. in fact more than usual .. ii will feel hurt too .. cos though he said he love me alot .. but say only marhhs .. who duno how .. ii noe his friends and game is ultimately on top of me ..

ii will make him to recover .. ii've nv asked anyone this question .. how ?

DEADOLL.

an illusion ? imagination ? or just a wishful thought ?

2010-04-10T20:09:00.002+08:00

ii realised ii didn't let go of anything .. ii hate to see fb now .. when ii saw her name on ur fb . my heart aches like the past .. why ? wadd did ii do wrong ? ii dun understand .. ii noe she will try to get you back .. even if it is .. ii should just wish you all the best .. ii want to be lesbian pls .. sigh .. ii can't stop crying .. iim nv angry .. it just can't stop bleeding ..

DEADOLL.

helping , kpo or nth better to do ?

2010-04-08T20:14:00.004+08:00

when ur friends ask you for help and suggestions .. you obviously give the best advice you could .. but when they refused to take ur words for real .. they will ask you over again and again and again .. so wadd's the pt of giving out ur suggestions when nobody eventually listens ?

a pain in the ass ..

ii really really hate it .. when you're so torturing in a r/s , den when you noe if you continue the shit , history repeats .. but if you choose to let go , the torture is up in ur head .. why ? cos letting go is a painful thing ..

ii think ii have been really really patient with ppl who dun appreciates .. seriously .. iim sick of being a nice person .. wadds the pt of being there for them when they hardly give a shit about you ? the most she will call you .. sms you .. whine and ask you this farkkiing common question "how? you tell me how?"

ii give you practical solutions .. but still they refuse to listen den later the same thing happen again .. wadd do you expect me to do ? ii dun owe any of you a single shit you noe ?

ii wash my hands of mag's shit .. ii also want to wash my hands on ling's shit .. ii cannot forget wadd you said to me infact .. over a guy that's none of my farkking business .. when iim just farkiing offering tissue .. stroking you to calm down .. all ii get is "farkk . end of friendship" walaus .. ii think backk really dulan .. you really pushed me to my limit ehhs .. over a guy who stares at you , you scold me ... over another guy you bluntly said shit like that .. farkk man .. & farkk you ! nonono .. its farkk the both of you man !

want break den dun1 let go , want patch den dun1 history repeat .. knn .. and ii just realised .. you nv trust me .. no one did in fact .

ANGRY . DULAN . PEKCHEK . PISSED OFF . FED UP !

DEADOLL.

chan ruk tur ....

2010-04-07T19:03:00.002+08:00

ytd went to meet nanshun for movie and catch ups at bliss .. long time no see him marhhs .. den sylvia joined me awhile . after that went to meet roy and his friends .. went for spins in town ..

recently , tried to befriend with her .. but too bad .. rotten .... when ii told syl and nan shun about the conversation they was like ...... hahhs" really .. couldn't help being amused by her atrocious attitude .. becos of sms tonality that she couldn't differentiate at all .. hahhs" can't really be bothered when until today .. she nv learns her lesson .. my friends will remind me that she will get wadd she deserves .. as it says .. what goes arnd , comes arnd :)

whenever ling sees my nails , before she compliments me .. she'll definitely say "too free" .. walaus .. heart aching bodohhs ... how arhhs .. ytd sylvia just told me kaplan has an intake in may and sch starts in july .. den ii still can work mehhs ? -.- mama ask me dun work , concentrate on my studies .. wahhs .. shiok leiis .. money drop from the sky siia .. lols" aiiya , damn farkk siia .. want to work full time also got prob .. tmd ... work part time also cannot see the money one .. alamak ..

going ratchada on friday with bunny .. ii start to like thai songs already ever since ii heard parb luang tah in ratchada ... wow .. can't wait to party again like there's no 2mr .. had enough of thinking ... thinking of wadd ? bastards in the world .. bastards who dun appreciate my help .. especially when my efforts really went down the drain .. and when shit happens , you think its normal .." SORRY" .. is that all you farkk tards can say ? there isn't a point you see that is worth being tgt isn't it ? FINE .. now ii regretted .. becos despite my endless efforts .. no one saw it ..

you say you appreciate ? ryte ! say only marhhs .. who duno how to say ? at the end of the day you just take it as ii like someone else so ii dump you .. THANKS ARHHS .. you're the closest to me yet you knew nth about me .. how sad should ii be ? stop acting noble when later you farkiing change ur words behind my back .. in front of me , you say its okiies . behind me ? you think otherwise .. ur good friend called me just to scold me .. how nice ..

at the end of the day , ii'm left with nth .. after taking care of you .. showering you with endless love .. do you think ii owe you ?? ii dun deserve this .. ii will hate you .. sooner or later .. cos you fking think iim like ur motherfarkiing HONEY ...

so funny ryte .. what ii say you'll nv listen or believe .. just like mag .. ii hate all of you .. hurting me again and again and again ..

you duno how hurt am ii ...

DEADOLL.

you're nth but lies ...

2010-04-03T20:24:00.002+08:00

RATCHADA / SABAI SABAI with bunny ..

met bunny and julie in the afternoon on wed for lunch .. too early man .. should've met for dinner larhhs .. after meeting julie .. bunny and me went to wheelocks starbucks to chill .. chat until at night den go back nap awhile . shower . change . meet bunny again .. off to thai clubs ..

sigh .. too much of a change in leon .. leaving me devastated .. leaving me without an answer .. ii was naive again . ii need a job ... ii hate all those thoughts .. drowning me with fear ..

DEADOLL.

my vision is blurred .. my directions are twined .. ii duno where iim heading to ..

2010-03-17T21:36:00.007+08:00

ii've been "busy" in a way .. not working nor studying now .. just relaxing and enjoy my days off 1st .. iim searching for a job soon ..

NEVERLAND [ sparks reunion with bunny & friends ]

FIONAKORSHIBI'S BDAY AT 3MONKEYS

these 3 pieces of churros cost about $6.80 if iim not wrong .. wow .. jaime , you undercharged urs already .. lols"

den we head to clinic at clarke quay :)

the lovely ..

playing 5 - 10 in clarke quay .. omg ..

my daughter :)

SYLVIALEECHENYEE'S BDAY AT HER PLACE

her sis baked for her the hello kitty cake .. hahhs" COOL

her mum (pink shirt) , cute ryte ? lols"

after the party's over .. we head to boat quay to drink !

ii love you sylvia , we've been thru the best and worse shit ever .. but still , iim glad to have you by my side :)

yi ling , my da jie .. hahhs"

& leon :)

the fact is andriel and me had timed out .. the fact is his condition of having an anxiety disorder caused our r/s to turn downhill .. the fact is my feelings for him was gradually fading ..

siighh .. maybe iim weak , maybe ii couldn't tolerate .. maybe iim just not a patient person .. but for 6 mths , iim always there .. to look after him .. and the worse is ii duno that he had this illness and iim still aimlessly trying to search for an answer to my question .. how to help him ?

when we had quarrels so often at the start of the year , ii knew that he's getting worse for he had changed dramatically .. all ii could ever get from his parents was "thanks for taking care of andriel" ii duno who to seek help from .. or rather ii feel lost ii duno wadd to do .. the angel in my heart changed into someone ii could've hate or even abandon ..

since dec , "breaking up" is a very common phrase that ii would bluntly shout ... but ii noe ii couldn't bare .. ii noe he wasn't the andriel ii knew but ii noe he will recover .. ppl beside me suggest me to leave him .. but this is about the responsibility ... if ii left him while he needed me most , ain't ii a bitch already ?

with all the pain ii went thru , ii just tahan .. my love for him was not as strong as the past anymore .. & den ii noe leon .. with my feelings so minimal for andriel , ii noe .. ii definitely will be distracted ..

& ii chose to be honest with him .. andriel is really the nicest guy ii ever known .. he was not only my boyfriend but my bestfriend too .. for now , being apart is the best for us ..

ii dun deny the fact , ii like leon .. my life is quite in a mess ehhs ? ii duno wadd to do either ..

DEADOLL.

exams are over !! :)

2010-03-10T12:40:00.005+08:00

my exams are finally done .. last friday , ii went timbre again .. this time with andriel , jon and then ester joined us ..

lols" its the wing , the ball is a light .

CONVERSE .

after that . jon complaint its still early so we head to cine to watch alice in wonderland .. ii was like half drunk when ii watched the movie .. lols" but its still nice :)

Just after tue when my exams are done , went to see some stuffs with ah via .. den while at ion , ii went to find my colleagues .. den wait for them finish work .. we went to cine kbox !! :)

started watching drama again .. this time iim watching autumn's concerto .. ii bet many ppl are watching too .. ii used to think its just another dumb drama where the girl is poor , the guy is rich .. they somehow got tgt .. happily ever after .. its true that all these drama are stereotypes .. but nevertheless , ii still got hook ..

ii hate it when ii watch these kind of drama , and ii always day dream when's my turn gonna be like the girl man .. how ii wish andriel has the characteristics of everything in a drama the guy could be .. life would be perfect ... hahhs" yea .. dream on .. dream on ....

was keeping myself occupied these days ..

tuesday - kbox with ion ppl

wednesday - dinner and movie with wensheng .. soo god damn long nv see him already ... my god .. years okiies ...

thursday (today) - after tuition , met magg .. went to j8 to get thumbdrive from paul .. den head to jurong to find qingling for a chat ..

friday - gonna meet andriel for all his shit , afternoon meet sylvia for nail session ..

saturday - tuition , yiwen's bday party and nyte is PARTY with ling and mag ~

sunday - nyte is PARTY~ with bunny :)

had a chat with mama , she told me she's getting old . her arms are getting wrinkly and wobbly .. she had blur vision at work which scare the hell outta her .. she's so afraid she would be blind .. and now she scare the f outta me .. omfg .. ii'm 20 already .. so fast .. and she's 60 already ..

ii wanna get married to a rich guy , who drives a 350Z , has a huge apartment which can accomodate my parents and his , who has a heart of gold .. treats me just like how every guy in drama series treats his girl , has a brain like wikipedia , and looks like an angel ...... probably like ....... ANDRIEL FONG with long hair and bangz .. hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"hahhs"

DEADOLL.

2010-02-24T19:16:00.004+08:00

my birthday at timbre .. quite good .. QUITE good ....

me and jon .. lols" he looked wierd here ..

me , andriel and jon :)

mel , xb kor and cousin max :)

drink . drink & drink ...

my brothers :)

thanks for coming .. ii noe this is the 1st and last time .. but iim happy that ii've known you all these years .. and when ii crumble and fall .. ii noe you're still there .. thanks .

the waterfall that made me fell ..

tengloong and mel :)

andriel and jon :)

it ended this sadly ..

tell me when you will be mine
tell me quando quando quando
we can share a love devine
please don't make me wait again

ii duno why , what is happening to us .. things btw us seemed to worsen with that behaviour of urs .. with that character of urs .. with that attitude of urs ..

when will you say yes to me
tell me quando quando quando
you mean happiness to me
oh my love please tell me when

after 14th sept 2009 .. the jovious dude ii've known was gone .. gone with the wind .. wadd ii face was struggles , fear and stresses ..

every moment is a day
every day seems like a lifetime
let me show you the way
to a joy beyong compare

all ii ever wanted from you was no materials nor notes .. but just to treat me the best you ever would .. like before ..

i can't wait a moment more
tell me quando quando quando
say its me that you adore
and then darling tell me when

ii hate this part right here .. feeling so moody . selfless .. ii love you ever deeply .. but time and time again , you made things worse .. ii hope you really do something about it .. before ii do it myself .. iim tired andriel ...

DEADOLL.

when ii fall in love ..

2010-02-16T19:47:00.005+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ! :)

was pretty busy with school and work thus unable to have time to even sit down infront of the computer .. it was the peak season .. everybody wants to do hair ... and the malay bitch left so lack of manpower .. (she slammed the name tag at the manager) .. ii was working hard .. so after CNY , iim taking a break from work .. need to study .. return hrs to the sch .. exams round the corner .. ii hope ii make it ..

nail shops are full and packed with appt .. even blogshops are full .. so ii guessed ii have to do it myself .. iim just lazy .. thought ii could be pampered for awhile this season .. hahhs"

ii did sylvia's nails .. it was a good and fast job .. ii was kinda competing with time as she's not feeling very well .. she chose this blue .. waddeva blue this is from OPI .. hmms .. den ii just do a simple design with glitters and few blings .. and yes , she's satisfied .. hahhs" :)

& this is my mum's .. she wants it simple yet not so boring .. she dun want blings .. so she chose 2 colours .. 1 is faceshop and the other is OPI .. & ii top it up with glitters at the end .. my mum love it :)

for me .. its CNY .. ii dun1 red .. so ii chose pink .. and ofcos my fav. glitters and blings :D which ah bb dun really like .. esp the colour .. he kp alot about the colour and said ii could've done something like sylvia's .. and iim like #%#$@#@^&&! stfu -.-

before new years eve (friday) . we met jon and ester after work .. thought of going timbre but was full .. so we head to sing k which ii pretty much yearned for since last yr .. ii really sang alot alot alot ..... hahhs"

saturday was reunion dinner .. sunday ii had 2 visitings .. so terrible that ii actually quarrelled with andriel .. SUCKS .. STUPIDITY .. ii duno . waddeva .. we're both at fault ..

irritating bitch who just can't give miie a good smile ..

on sunday night , we went for a movie at amk hub .. walaus .. ii canot tahan that land of lianbengs .. my god .. ii kept grumbling that we should've went to cine .. ii'll be much "at home" there .. den we watched little big soldier .. pretty cool show .. den off we go home to drink .. zariel and his friends were so noisy that his mother came out and kp -.-

monday ii dragged andriel to hanghwa's hse .. my sec sch teacher .. so long since ii last saw him at his wedding with ms ang (another teacher who used to relieve us in the past) den we chat ... catched up .. wow .. ii can't tahan their bombastic conversations larhhs .. ii couldn't really understand jairus and his jokes that only hanghwa understand .. interesting o.0

after that , we head to town for percy jackson .. we shopped abit .. ate japanese ..

and most of all my andriel finally did wadd he promised me before he entered army .. take neoprints :)

ii love you ah poot :) ohhs dear .. you this ah hai .. dropped ur pass .. better find back soon .. ii worry for you :(

cheers!

DEADOLL.

the littlest things that take me there

2010-02-01T12:41:00.002+08:00

ii guess my new year resolution is to manage my finance and anger .. felt like an angsty kid sometimes .. ii couldn't wake up for sch again .. maybe my inner clock had changed ..

you may have 4gotten this .. but ii've never .. never 4get our memories .. there's really a wierd difference when you still have long hair and when you're in army .. but nevertheless .. I Love You ..

went to have lunch the other day with your brother and when we came back .. ii made this :)

& farkk you for imitating miie like a farkktard -.- " iim playing scrabble with myself "

ii suddenly become speechless inside ..

DEADOLL.

IF ONLY ....

2010-01-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

if only iim a happier person in life .. ii would've been happier ..
if only my bf is not in camp .. ii would meet him 24/7 and be contented ..
if only ii can pr well , ii would be cheerful like fiona ..
if only my world is filled with sunshines and rainbow .. ii wouldn't have any worries ..
if only my parents are rich , ii would've enjoyed life the way ii wanted ..
if only iim independantly rich , ii would've enjoyed life the way ii wanted too ..
if only ii noe how to manage my finance like sylvia , my mind would've been at ease ..

humans are fake .. so hard to find a sincere one .. who will wholeheartedly treat you as a friend .. and not judge you but understand you .. alot of them will judge you like a book .. they read the title .. and read the 1st chapter and thats how they define wadd kinda person you are .. but the best part is .. it is even easier to judge the reader .. just by the way she read the title and 1st chapter of your story .. you can tell wadd kinda person he/she is ..

be it a coward who only cares about himself and claim "do not want to get involved" or
a superhero who will stands up for you ..

sometimes ii do wished iim a christian .. a pure christian .. maybe ii'll be happier at heart ? ii can be a very farkked up person but still have no worries inside .. all ii do is smile smile & smile even though the world hates you .. pretty cool ..

or if ii could , ii want to be a selfish person .. thats the best .. think about yourself .. dun want to get involved with anybody's business .. and never share the good stuffs .. ii might be a happy person too ..

but well , its too bad .. ii can't .. if ii could , ii would be stealing ppl's bf already and not the other way round .. hahhs" ii would be having a rich lad who drives a bm and send miie to sch to work . fetch miie from sch from work .. bring miie wherever ii want to .. gives miie money allowance for shopping .. every mth surprise miie with gifts ..

would you rather choose love ? or money ?
ii gave up money for love .. ii found my answer back then .. ii rather love than to be loved .. no matter how hard it is .. sometimes being able to slp with your love one in a tiny single size bed , cuddling each other to slp .. is a bliss :)

but of cos when ii have money issues ii'll get upset .. cos the load is on my shoulders .. iim not so good life like some ppl .. but when eventually love suppresses all the shit ... nothing else could wipe that smile on your face isn't it ?

ii must wait .. ii must learn to be patient .. who noes if andriel can give miie the best life any one can ask for .. god will bless miie .. he always gave miie wadd ii wanted .. now ii noe .. all the hardships ii've been thru is a test ... a good obstacle for miie to learn in life ..

iim happy 2da .. though ii had a bad day with andriel .. ii didn't reply him nor pick up his call .. but surprisingly when ii need a listening ear .. sylvia was there .. it may be coincidence .. but well , at least she asked miie out to chat which kinda brighten my entire day :)

ii feel like partying real hard .. ii miss shawn :( its been a long time since we met for another clubbing session with ling .. ii'll never 4get how we used to party hard tgt in zouk/phuture .. hahhs" & iim happy until now ling is still my clubbing sister .. hahhs" ofcos we'll find a day for coffee :)

wierd .. iim pretty tired .. but iim like speaking randomly .. whats going on up there ?

DEADOLL.

nightmare's over , the rain stops & the earth stood still .part 2

2010-01-24T12:28:00.014+08:00

ii went malaysia for a quick runaway ... ii should say its quite a thrill .. ii went there on my own the 1st time .. ii took a train down to woodlands den took a bus in .. ii was so afraid ii would meet any mishaps .. being alone really made miie feel good sometimes .. ii noe its an irony .. ii was happy though .. like yea .. ii made it through myself ..

faye , my colleague . ii met her at the malaysian custom where she came to pick miie up ..

we went to different malls to window shop .. ii bought a pair of boots-like heels for new year :) ii think it was RM$89.90 .. it looked really nice so ii bought it without much hesitation ..

in one of the malls named sutera mall .. they have an event of kids competiting against one another on these sporty stuffs .. ofcos the winners could take home a trophy and ii think the champ will get one of the board too .. pretty cool when ii saw the competition .. very gan chiong .. hahhs"

last but not least .. the portugeuse egg tart .. ii noe in singapore they launched it quite a no. of years back .. but ii duno why ii ain't interested to try .. its until my colleague wanted to buy then she asked miie to try .. wow ! ii didn't noe it taste SO delicious .. ii miss the taste man .. ah bb .. you heard that ? lols"

after we catched alvin & the chipmunks which was only RM$9 each (cheap!) , she sent miie back to malaysian custom .. amazingly .. melvin was waiting for miie outside the singapore custom already .. ii said amazing cos he's always the one late -.-

you noe iim glad that things at home had been better .. my mum and ii are actually talking already .. though we're not as happy .. but she's trying her best in her own way .. things were crazy that night .. ii thought it was an awesome night having sakae sushi with my sis but end up ii had a court case to attend ..

& then ii found out that ii have a phobia of violence . very few ppl will understand my situation .. growing up facing 4 adults in your life since young is no joke at all .. especially when you have a violent family . well the court case turned really bad till my mum called my god bro and mel down .. they thought ii was abused by ppl outside .. but they themselves do not noe what they have done to miie since young had caused miie to be what ii am today ..

weekends are the best .. ii get to see my eggiecakes ! this weekend was a good long one .. he attn c on thur so he was back home on thur night :) yeah .. & ii kinda start a fight with him for being an insensitive bastard .. ohhs well . waddeva .. hahhs"

& off to esplanade we went ..

& then another day with andriel :) we wentt to army market to get his stuffs that he needed den head down to mama's workplace to find her .. but apparently she's not feeling well that day so we left just when we reached .. ii wanted to send her back home den come out again .. but ii duno wadd was ii hesitating about .. we alighted at dhoby ghaut and ii stood outside .. as the train moved on , my tears dropped .. andriel hugged miie and plant miie a kiss hoping ii feel better .. & yea .. ii do :)

den we head to cine for law abiding citizen (andriel insisted very much) .. ii guess we reached at about 7plus 8 .. but our movie was 12am .. lols" ii 4got it the show was a hit so they were full OR their time slots were little .. ii really am getting old -.-

so we went to eat .. and head to the studio for some practise .. then back to scape park ..

not forgetting ii got myself a hellokitty ring ! :) damn heng larhhs .. this is the kind where you drop a coin in and turn den the dumbell drops .. yea .. so lucky .. the 1st one was a pink one and the 2nd one was a black .. just nice ! 1 miie & 1 for sylvia :)

saturday ! went sentosa after tuition which eggiecakes , xuanbin kor , mel & linus .. happy :)

my god bro handsome anot ? lols"

hehes :)

mel lived up to his name man ! kept looking at a grp of girls NONSTOP . ii regretted not taking a pic of him literally sit infront of them see them play "monkey" =.= & did ii mentioned he named himself cb wong ? lols

so mean lorhhs .

LOLS.

so long never go sentosa lerhhs .. the last time ii went in the day was with mag last year feb or mar .. & its the 1st time ii went to sentosa with andriel :) you noe .. at 1st ii am afraid you would think wierd that ii didn't bring you to my hse for so many mths .. but 8mths already .. ytd was the 1st time you stepped in .. you're also the 1st bf who stepped into my hse only after 8mths .. hahhs"

ah bb .. ii noe you love to read my blog but you noe ii hate it when you nag at miie for not blogging and all the more you noe what you'll get for nagging at miie .. but well .. here it is .. so NO MORE NAGGINGS .. si ah poot .. life's at peace now .. just need to get over my studies and move on to my life .. hate studying .. but at least ii noe ii made some true friends in sch .. who stood by miie during this 2yrs in sch no matter what we been thru .. especially sylvia :) ii still rmb last time ii was so pissed with wadd she done to miie .. ii kp to our daughter ..

our daughter tell her wadd ii complained and she still can laugh .. ii love the fact that she noe ii mean no harm though my words are always inappropriate .. hahhs"

ah bb . ii noe you can't wait to ord too .. so we can faster get married ! :) labi labi :)

DEADOLL.

nightmare's over .. the rain stops .. and the earth stood still

2010-01-08T00:51:00.006+08:00

okiies .. ii noe .. its been a mth since ii blogged .. my life was really hectic ... but at least life is peaceful now :) let miie show you overdue pics ...

HELIPAD.. again..

a lovely night once again with andriel :)

ii tried to make lotsa monkey faces .. but ii duno why my face is not flexible like his .. lols"

ii miss my hair colour :( so darn nice larhhs .. den sch starts .. farkk ..

this was taken in ion's x'mas tree .. long ago ii noe .. ii mentioned overdue up there ryte .. its pretty cool .. blings blings ..

& den Zariel's birthday ..

this may be the last pic ii will take for both of them .. cos unfornately they split already .. though ii duno wadd happen nor do ii want to find out .. ii noe that waddeva lies in front of miie and your brother's eyes are hypocrites .. ii could not stand to see such things happened & morever the new one's a total bitch .. we do not need to noe what happen .. its obvious ..

she's just like my friend .. no .. my used-to-be "sister" ..

to be continued ..

PARTY EVERDAY 2

2009-12-22T21:20:00.007+08:00

ZOUK - Mambo
with Andriel , Jon , Toad , Joycelyn and Others.

ash green \m/

HELIPAD
with Andriel , Jon , Toad , David , David's gf , Black , Joyce

Andriel had to wear their pants cos he wore berms that day :( the door bitch wouldn't let him in .. so toad call the manager down .. lols"

brilliant view at clarke quay ..

it was david's birthday .

squat jon .

my tight buddy ! :)

my all time sweet heart ..

its amazing .. we've been tgt for almost 8mths already .. even jon said .. so fast ? hahhs" ii always loved my flashbacks on how we met .. never forgotten .. I love you eggiecakes .

cheers!

DEADOLL.

PARTY EVERYDAY :)

2009-12-22T19:26:00.007+08:00

ZOUKOUT 2009
with Andriel , Jon and Ester :)

thanks for coming eggiecakes :)

LEFT4DEAD2
with Andriel , Jon & Toad

NIGHTRIDER HOME
with Eggiecakes :)

RANDOM MORNING TO SEE EGGIECAKES LIKE BA ZHANG
x)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

anger management !

2009-12-11T23:57:00.006+08:00

thats how fake ppl are .. even when you did something wrong nobody bothers to tell you .. den they start to bitch about you .. "get most of us fucking pissed that day , even before going in phuture"

FUNNY ! ppl started complaining "aloysius this time really too much" .. fancy complaining how wrongly planned it was .. & all the farkiing thing ii said is ii was bored in a god damn hotel doing nothing .. playing sudoku to be exact . & ii farkiing brought all ur bags in like idiot .. the bouncers even laughed at miie ..

"you were bored because you didn't get him to dance with you" .. you really thought ii was head over heels with him ehhs ? LOLS" it clearly shows that you dun even noe miie well .. happy spouting nonsense juice .. clubbers who noe miie .. they clearly noe that ii CANNOT DANCE WITHOUT ALCOHOL .. you are like mother farkiing high .. & ii was farkiing sober .. I CAN DANCE ?! ii not the act high just to entertain .. stupid ..

"bf in camp still can wanna hook up someone's boyfriend" OMFG . if ii wanna really hook up someone .. there's plenty by my side who drives , who rides who are rich & single .. need ii get someone's bf .. ii dun think so .. & for ur mother farkiin info .. you noe it urself & you wouldn't call him a bastard then would you ? "if dun dare to play , dun club larhhs" .. dun you think this phrase is familiar that comes out from ur friend's mouth ? ohhs lols .

"no sense of creativity" .. you can deem miie whatever you like .. but my friend claimed you as that :)

& also for ur mother farkiing info .. THAT GIRL noe miie more than you think .. THAT GIRL apologised to miie & thats how we reconciled .. you think she should feel unlucky ? well , you duno how APPRECIATIVE she was ..

start spreading to ppl and say things that are not even true ? is this a propaganda ? LOLS" you can TRY telling the whole world .. cos ii dun give a flying farkk to small ppl like you ..

so who's the one not getting the facts ryte ?

you must be happy that ii'm friendless .. or rather ii seemed friendless .. but you noe wadd ? my TRUE friends are everywhere .. ii dun need to be so favourable like you .. but at least ii noe my TRUE friends are there when ii need them .. if ii haven met you .. ii won't die either .. ii may be very lonely .. got no one to talk to .. got no one to hang out with .. but ii noe when ii call someone , they will be there to listen , to bring miie out when ii'm bored .. no nd you to be so childish enough to be happy about it .. its up to miie who ii want to call only ..

tweet language ? funny . but ii like it .. so why the farkk you care ? ii dun think ii lose in anything .. only a friend like you .. a pity .. take advantage of you ? ii am capable of more .. so dun underestimate miie and think iim taking advantage when .. yarhhs .. iim just a cyber bitch who affects you so much .. lols" watch my mouth ? ii quite scare .. LOLS"

just to tell you 1 thing .. TRUE friends will tell you in the face what you did wrong & not IGNORE you & treat you like transparent & forget what she done for you .. you only live once . & you're really naive .. cos you've been through nth like miie .. you can scold miie all you want now , you can mock in silence .. you can spread how bad a person am ii was .. but in the future .. you will noe its such a small issue that you dun even noe why you are so upset for ..

cheers!
DEADOLL.

HAPPY POP & HAPPY 7 MTHS EGGIE ! :)

2009-12-10T00:34:00.004+08:00

the weather is humid and the glaring sun simply made the ppl stop perspiring .. ii reached sch at 9.15am .. thinking that my re-test was 9am .. apparently it was 10am -.- so ii waited .. was chatting with my class advisor about my family .. & my test .. ii was confident .. or maybe over confident .. ii duno .. ii just did the paper within 10min .. it was easy ..

ii skipped accounting and attended eggie's pop at tekong with aunt jean ..

the letter stated the shuttle bus at pasir ris interchange will be there from 1.25pm-1.40pm .. so we rushed like mad ! we cab down end up waiting & WAITING till 2plus den we decided to board the bus . the parade not the start at 3.45pm ! when we were seated , our surrouding was empty lorhhs .. den as ii wentt to look for eggie secretly .. ii got alot of attention of eyes darting at miie .. not the gao weii ! eggie say all the horny men .. LOLS"

den aunt jean wants to take the free photo that the army guy emphasised .. lols" kept repeating the announcement .. "the photo taking is FREE" .. hahhs" so yea , ii called the guy over and he snapped ...

"Q" for Quebec ! :)
but ah bb not in the parade .. he was behind enjoying the parade -.- so ii sneaky sneaky wentt to find him .. he's not suppose to meet miie x)

ii kept asking him when he's coming out cos its so meaningless if he's not there & we're here wadd .. but finally he came out .. he told miie he'll be in the last row :)
den they invited us all to go down and find the soldiers .. hehes .. ii was excited !

he hate the glare ii noe .. hahhs"

his quebec friends :)

then they throw their caps :)
so happy for you eggie ! yarhhs .. ii noe .. you can grow hair already .. lols"

ah bb .. very happy cos it was our 7 mth anniversary too ! :)

so we wentt to pizzahut for our dinner .. we chat alot .. alot :)

ii was god damn tired .. duno why .. even now blogging , iim yawning .. gosh .. can't wait for sat - ZOUKOUT with eggiecakes :)

cheers!

DEADOLL.

you can have whatever you like ..

2009-12-08T02:41:00.002+08:00

some over dued pics .. went drinking at alley bar with andriel with his friends one day after they booked out ..

last sat went out with bro melvin .. andriel got confinement so asked melvin to bring miie out xD
played left 4 dead 2 .. cool siia .. 1st time ii think lan was fun .. lols" after that met another friend for dim sum den head to mount faber relac :)

reached home at 7am .. just nice eggie called cos he just woke up :) chat awhile den murdered 2 roaches in his farkiing room ! omg .. was talking to him half way den saw this thingy crawling .. nb .. den while snapping pics . ii saw another one on the wall .. ii can slp ! my god my god .. wiped it out then go slp . when ah bb reached home .. asked him to clear xD

awaiting for graduation .. for my new life ..
cheers!
DEADOLL.

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once you're a whore , you're nothing more ..

2009-11-26T00:38:00.008+08:00

x'mas is coming .. the grass was decorated with lights .. very beautiful isn't it ? was smoking with my colleague at ion & ii saw ...

town is splashed with lights too :)

so happy .. sylvia and miie reconcile .. the both of us hope that things will be the same like the past .. we started talking .. going out for movie and shopping :) ii used to cry and reminescent when ii look at our pics .. we really had alot of fun in the past .. nobody else can share my joy like she did .. no one can be as crazy as her .. to make miie laugh , comfort miie and surprise miie :)

Thank you for everything .. though ii didn't really asked why you didn't talk to miie back then .. ii'm still happy to noe that you're always there :)

bored at work .. setting up my hair then ..

power pack ! saw aaron kwok & ekin cheng at ps :)
sophia asked miie to go up take a look .. so ii grabbed my cam & took a shot .. hahhs"

one of the night after work .. ii wentt to meet melvin .. den met teng loong also .. its such a small world that bunny noe him too .. den wentt to liquid at boat quay to drink .. was emo that night .. ii do feel like drinking but didn't have the thought of it .. so coincidental .. back home at 4am .. skipped sch the next day cos .. sch wasn't my thing anymore ..

was in sch 1 day , & ii saw this scene from far .. managed to snap it fortunately .. it was raining .. the cute bird solo under the branches .. ii felt like the bird .. waiting for the sky to stop raining .. so ii can fly happily under the sun .. & not watch the sky cry .. my heart has always been heavy since april .. it was never fully happy ..

with L J ppl ii met my last holiday .. made miie wonder more about life .. about ppl .. when ii see her blogname lagi angry .. maybe ii should change to www.andrielizabeth.blogspot.com ? LOLS" you really got no sense of creativity .. ii really really hate her now .. petty .. VERY .. ii hate many ppl in fact .. yarhhs .. ii'ma emo kid .. thats why ii suit rockers like andriel marhhs . hahhs! melvin kept calling andriel rocker .. but yea .. you ppl are FAKE . ii dun give a flying farkk about you :)

ii rather be lonely .. plugged in my mp3 .. look at my memories in my cam .. sing songs .. smk .. emo .. cry .. than meet farkked up bitches like you ! treasure friendships ? hahhs! QUITE treasure ... you not the make use of miie den throw miie aside like you're some big shot ! agi .. agi .. agi .. agi .. such simple sentence & you cannot take it ... well .. ii've yet to say more ..

such a pity .. that you got a pretty face .. but such an UGLY UGLY heart ..

managed to catch a movie recently with eggiecakes :) 2012 .. he's been awaiting ... made miie cry again .. cos when the earthquake comes , the flood comes .. thats it .. everything's like GONE ... ii thought of my mum again .. everytime ii cry when ii think of my mum .. eggie will hugg miie ... and say "you still got miie" .. thats the least comfort ii could get ..

at the busstop .. waiting for the bus with eggie :)
almost every weekend he go back , ii will send him backk .. 1st few weeks ii didn't .. cos iim still quite engrossed with work .. but now , ii work a little lesser .. cos ii either take off for my ca or eggie .. time really flies ..

2day ii met randy after workk .. ii told him that andriel this wednesday pop already .. so fast ... back then when he saw miie .. ii was sobbing cos ii miss andriel so much .. 2wks gone seems like forever .. before he go army .. we meet every single day .. the most only 1 day didn't meet .. when he still in yamaha .. he will wait for miie finish work at starbucks with jon , ian , randy , syad .. life was happening .. hahhs"

its nice to think of the good times isn't it ? it makes you smile no matter where you are .. ii like :)

can't imagine .. ii passed the 3mths test already .. ii have 1yr 9months to go .. ii should be thankful .. ian has 4yrs .. but ii think ian & jacque will make it :) ii can't wait for the day to come .. always wished that 1 day .. andrielizabeth , jon & his gf and ian will go visit jacque in london for a holiday at least ... 6 of us .. chilling at london's starbucks ? LOLS" nice imagination .. its a dream .. be nice :)

"mum is cooking dinner , do you want to eat ?"

"no . dun1"

"mum cooked ur share , better go out eat a bit"

....

"before you eat , no need call ppl arhhs ?"

"mummy , daddy eat rice"

....

SHOUTS.SHOUTS.SHOUTS.

....

"berdd, you've withdrawn yourself you noe ! why like that !? last time we not like that one berdd ! mummy daddy just want to see you more often at home . just show face cannot mehhs ?? watch show cannot watch in living room mehhs ??"

"if nobody talks to miie den ii come home for wadd ?!"

"den you mean ii must ask you to get out ??"

.....

with tears pouring heavily down her cheeks , she grabbed her bag & ran out of the house ..

msg . "FYI , she cooked fish and soup for you . cos she noes you're not a meat person . she dun usually cook so much on weekdays .. if you're hungry , there's still left over .."

ah bb .. there are some things ii didn't tell you like a fight that almost broke out at home .. ii think its useless to bring up again cos there's nth you can do .. ii only noe ii cried real mad & wished you were with miie that moment .. going thru the pain .. the anger .. & the sadness .. when ii sat on xb's bike . my tears were free flow .. all the way till our destination .. its still flowing ... life was miserable when you dun have a happy home ..

ppl always say there's no place like home .. unfortunately .. mine isn't what it used to look like anymore ..

ANDRIELIZABETH rock those ppl out there \m/ especially ppl who copy with no sense of creativity .

cheers!

DEADOLL.

The voice of nightly winds has awakened me

2009-11-19T23:45:00.004+08:00

2da my C.A. was pretty okiies ii should say .. ii short of $300 to balancing figure .. damn . after sch , cong called gabriel to pick miie from sch .. den he send miie back to andriel's place .. waited for miie to bathe and all .. ii think like 45min ? impressive that he actually fetch miie from sch den wait downstairs some more ..

den head to bugis . they play billiard .. ii study auditing .. farkking boring subject . ii swear ii hate theory man .. after that they go arcade play ..

cute siia this one .. but ii duno how to play .. lols"

once a rider ..

now a racer ..

time flies man .. last time cong still ride bike .. in team some more .. now change to car liiaos arhhs .. hahhs"

are there too many stuffs in my head till its leaking out or wadd ? quite a no. of ppl spotted miie with a frown .. ii'll probably be frowning till andriel POP man .. ohhs . andriel decided to take class 2B .. happy for him .. ii wanna take class 3 though .. with the nice scars on my knees , ii've been reconsidering for quite a while whether to take class 2B or not .. hmms ..

cheers!

DEADOLL.

lay down your arms .. give up the fight ..

2009-11-19T01:40:00.003+08:00

my andriel kept reminding miie to blog .. though iim suppose to be aslp now but ohhs well . its 1.49am ppl .. my eyes are painful but not very tired .. iim dead man .. 2mr got accounting ca .. ii want my "A" siia .. 2da sharon lee asked miie (in short) why so emo .. isit becos of work or bf .. well , ii feel like replying none of the above .. siians .. maybe its really bf ... andriel not arnd .. really damn siians .. he emo , ii lagi siians ... if he happy ii dun feel that bad ..

wahahhs" ii snapped a pic of his platoon photo .. just nice can see his name arhhs .. he damn cute larhhs ^^.

2da .. went to study with sulywn , pingying , minting and wan xin . ii just ate , plugged on my ipod and do revisions man .. glad iim picking up but erms .. alittle late ehhs . the big day's 2mr man ... den called cong to fetch miie .. ii was at sembawang sun plaza man .. so far .. lols" den went backk to eggie's place .. cos mum & dad's at the cruise man .. so its better if ii stay here also .. nearer to sch .. scare ii late larhhs ..

andriel's acting wierder .. he kinda confronted miie for the 1st time .. he called and ask where ii was .. who was ii with ... where did ii go .. where am ii going .. felt really wierd for the very 1st time .. ii always tell ppl my bf was the best .. he is very nice .. he won't control me .. blahhs blahhs .. but suddenly he acted this way made miie think twice about my words .. but well , he apologised .. he must've been too stress in army again ...

ii noe he miss miie , his friends and home .. when he book out , ii must bring him to the movies .. though we're a little tight but .. it'll be worth it to let him loosen up .. so poor thing ah bb .. ii also cannot help him anything .. every night hear his voice for merely 10-15min .. eggie , you duno how much ii miss you only .. ii may not like to express myself through the phone .. but every weekend when you see miie , you cannot tell mehhs ? BE STRONG , BELIEVE .

some old photos of miie and fiona .. probably the last photo ever taken .. went to ratchada den head to dbl o to drink back den .. cos she got a little dispute with desmond so ii acc her lorhhs .. so steady ryte ?? dun understand .. really dun understand ..... sighh .. anyway .. thanks for everything :)

miie and via .. my very good friend .. she was there all the time in year 1 . my hmw , my life , bgr .. waddeva .. but you all noe .. friends come and go .. so ppl .. treasure your time yea ..

alittle random .. a pic of my friends .. most of them from year 1 .. thanks fiona for your care and concern man . ii really appreciate it :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

flames to dust .. lovers to friends .. why do all good things comes to an end ?

2009-11-16T23:31:00.006+08:00

okiies eggie , ii didn't promise you .. but ii said ii will try to blog everyday for your sake allryte ? :)

2da ii went to sch (amazing) .. den after sch ah bb came to send miie to work :D sooooo happy can! walaus .. when was the last time he sent miie to work man .. still rmb last time he will only send miie to work when he's going studio for drumming den sun bian send miie to work -.- nice bf .. hahhs" still , ii'm thankful okiies :)

we laughed all the way .. ii asked him wadd is disenchanted ..

andriel : you noe wadd is enchanted ? something like magic ?
elizabeth : uhh huhhs ..
andriel : yea , disenchanted is the opposite larhhs .. poof ! the magic gone ..

he was so funny when he do the hand action larhhs .. walaus .. bth .. hahhs"

den ii was singing to him "can you meet me halfway , right at the boarderline .. where iim gonna wait for you"
& he was " nono ! ii meet you at home "
ii burst into laughter lorhhs .. so happy like that :)

andriel got depression .. thats wadd his mum derived from their conversation .. ii called him during my 10min break in class and his phone was off so ii called his mum to see if he's still home .. just when andriel called miie , his mum returned my call ..

aunt jean : Hi elizabeth !
deadoll : Auntie jean ! ohhs nth larhhs .. andriel's phone was switched off , so ii called to ask if he's still home ..
aunt jean : ohhs .. ii was bathing just now so ii thought it was an emergency call , ii called you back straight after ii bathed .. he left 10min ago already ..
deadoll : ohhs .. okok . can ..
aunt jean : elizabeth , you must treat andriel nicer arhhs .. dun always scold him .. just now we talked & he sound troubled . next time then ii tell you , iim going out soon .. ii think he's really troubled and need your love and concern ..

okiies .. from this conversation .. it kinda freaked miie out .. like "huhhs? ii treat him very bad mehhs ?" ii straight away asked andriel "ii treat you not good mehhs ????" LOLS"

den chey .. ii thought wadd .. the truth is his mum guessed he got depression .. well , not really surprised cos ii agree that these few weeks he've been damn emo emo emo .. he will super love love miie and miss miie .. not ii bhb or wadd horhhs .. but he's been saying it out so often .. too often in fact .. in 1 month's time he's going to POP already . still will like that .. at the start , ii understand .. but now , ii really think ah bb got emotional stress ..

ii admit that ii duno wadd's he's going thru inside .. but well , ii reminded him to be strong like me .. ii also now like no friends .. no more so called clique or good friends to hang out with and to eat with after sch .. really disenchanted .. now ii noe how to use this word with your funny explanation .. hahhs"

so sad when ii thought of how me and regina suddenly so close and suddenly not even friends like that .. & ii really think only lifang can tolerate my outrageous temper .. its just such a pity that our route can never be the same as before .. ii always tell andriel .. if ii die , my funeral sure got alot of ppl one .. so meaningless to live when everything in life isn't as smooth as ii wanted it to be .. so many obstacles that ii reflect so much that ii duno wadds right and wrong anymore ..

ii tried to be as good as ii can , but didn't expect this friendship to be so weak .. when she back pain ii cab down from ps to fetch her back .. waddeva she wanna do , ii sure on her .. no more eyeliner ii also buy for her .. ii need to buy for myself also must think twice arhhs . look at my coach wristlet more emo . she psycho miie to buy one .. ii even came up with similiar conbination name like andrielizabeth for her & her guy larhhs .. siighh .. ii dun wanna believe in friends anymore .. ii dun even wanna believe in humans .

when you feel so down , you duno who to turn to .. when you're happy , you duno who to share your joy with .. when you're troubled , you can only bottled it up and talk to urself .. this is how ii felt all this while .. life without andriel is really miserable . & so ii said ii'll wait .. so STFU and dun emo anymore ah b .. you think army is tough ? den you think iim enjoying my life outside ? bloody nonsense .... ii should be dead ..

2day at ps , glenn styled my hair .. damn COOL .. love this style man ! arwui at bugis styled my hair something like this once before .. just nice that day go baybeats with andriel .. ii looked like a rocker yo ! xD

look at how my blackie slept ? so cute lorhhs .. can yours sleep like that too ? hahhs"

ii feel like crying now .. but who can ii cry to ?

cheers!
DEADOLL.

you can talk all you want .. but my skin is really thick .

2009-11-15T16:45:00.002+08:00

long long time no see my best clubbing sister man .. was watching drama online when she called .. so surprised but of cos ii'm happy :) though ii lied ii was waiting for cab =X (actually was in the lift and she spotted) .. lols" BUT .. ii cab down in 5min .. hahhs"

wentt to our old place . PHUTURE ..

she's so farkiing paranoid that she became fat and all .. so if you say

"no larhhs . you're not fat" she will go "no! you see , you see ! ii put on weight already"
OR
"yea , think you put on a little flab" she will definitely go "omg . ii'm really fat arhhs"
that kinda thing you noe .. so contradicting larhhs she -.-

damn .. ii looked like hell :(

wee .. COACH .

andriel was caught smking in camp .. cos apparently smking was banned .. & ii've warned , told , scold , shout waddeva ii could've expressed myself by .. my words still fell on deaf ears .. heart aching you noe .. ii farkked him up & said "you're just like maggie who will never listen to me when ii noe whats ur outcome gonna be like"

ii really wonder why .. ain't ii a human too ? with feelings ? or am ii just a parrot who keeps repeating and repeating but sad to say .. nobody gives a flying farkk ..

he was devastated .. afraid ... that he'll be charged to db ( military jail ) .. he said if he's in , it would be a month . and asked if ii'll wait .. if ii'll leave , he'll still be my bestfriend ..

ii broke down whenever ii see those words ..

which guy on this earth would ever say that ?
which guy on this earth would let his gf go club and wait for her at home ?
when she steps out of the cab and puke at the canal , all he did was gently pat her back and say "puke it out , puke it out" ..
which guy would allow his gf to go out with guyfriends who has a car or bike ?

no one else but andriel fong ..

you're so dumb and stupid to think ii would even thought of leaving you .. ii've said before ii'll never leave you idiot .. ILOVEYOU! ii'm waiting .. & will still wait .. how can you 4get our wedding photo you this FBI heart .. ii still want my andriel to be like the 1st day ii noe .. ii want you to have long hair with bangs in our wedding photo rmb ? ah poot lorhhs you ..

cheers!
DEADOLL.

shattered piece of life .. you're the only reason iim alive ..

2009-11-12T00:51:00.003+08:00

haven been touching the laptop for god noes how long .. didn't wanna go home after work .. been calling ppl out for supper .. ii feel like screaming at this moment .. work is fine .. just that ii couldn't smile no more .. ii felt as if its been yrs since ii last saw andriel .. ii feel as if ii couldn't take it living anymore ... if time could stay .. ii want it to rewind to the days we go jamming .. when we will slack at esplanade enjoying the bands .. when we will appreciate music tgt at the baybeats ..

yes , iim looking forward to every wkend like you .
ii miss you andriel ..

DEADOLL.

I can hold my head up high, & its all because you're by my side

2009-10-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

some more photos from regina's on friday's see sha ....

lols" not forgetting ii puke near andriel's place .. magmag brought miie home :) to andriel's home :) ii waited for him like crazy larhhs . 10.30 ii woke up already .. waiting for his call until 3plus when iim trying to force myself to slp .. the phone rang . its my cakes ! ii quickly went to make up den go down cab to pasir ris to wait for my cakes :)
ur bunkmates must be jealous x)

though the wkend was short .. it doesn't matter .. we hugged each other tight to bed .. hoping that time will freeze .. he was exhausted from the 6days outfield camp trip .. but still struggles to be awake just to keep miie company .. we play either guitar hero or rockband . ii 4got .. he got both . so .. yea .. ii sang while he play the guitar .. the drum padder spoil .. so ii can't play :(

played till cakes say he tired . den ii realised his eyes were red .. it was only 11plus .. aww .. my poor baby ..

andriel's POP is in dec .. we can't wait .. we can't wait everything to be over .. when he'll be outta army .. when he'll be teaching drums for a living .. when we'll get married .. when we'll get our dream bungalow .. with his music studio in the basement .. filled with acoustic drums , guitars , keyboards , piano .. what have he ? when our toilets have tv and our bedroom have projectors .. when he has long hair & bangs like axel rose in our wedding photo .. when ii will sing & he'll play the drums .. when we have our kids ... when he's teaching them music .. when his kids are jamming in the basement studio ..

omg .. it sounds like a dream isn't it ? no .. ii want it to happen .. ii love you andriel .. & yes , iim urs forever .. just like wadd you said to miie everytime you hugg miie to slp :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

Are you still alive ? Are you scare inside ?

2009-10-24T10:49:00.004+08:00

ii feel that .. in a r/s , the most impt thing is trust . if there's ain't no trust , then you're flopped .. ii find it so tiring and waste of time worrying whether my guy still loves miie whether he's cheating on miie .. whether he still borther bout his ex gf .. why there are still past pics left behind .. all this small little details , ii should say are sensitivity ..

ii've seen my friends with all kinds of r/s .. long distance , tgt for yrs but independent love , daily quarrels yet still loving .. waddeva .. you name it , ii guessed ii've seen it all .. but they still have trust ..

isn't it sad that if you're tgt with ur guy for a long time already , you still hafta worry bout so many things ?

ii trust andriel totally .. but it really really irritates miie when joycelyn hafta keep talking to him .. its like pretty constant man .. when those pics of ex love are still existing in his comp .. ii definitely feel uncomfortable but ii kept quiet for 3mths .. till this woman msn him a sentence that totally blew miie up HOT ..

ii shall wait & see his reaction when he comes backk ..

went to seesha with regina & clique ..

met her at her place 1st den head to amk hub .. supposed to take something light .. but ended up feeling full .. lols"

we really la kopi siia .. lols" reminds miie of andriel :(
ah bb . ii wonder wadd time you're coming outt . pls call miie soon . ur babycakes is waiting at ur place .. no .. at our place :)

magmag !

ii rmb the last time ii went see sha was with andriel , jon , inez , arsyad and zariel .. thats when ii feel the happiness of love in andriel's arms :)

went to have supper with fiona and des after work :)

SUPER MISS MY EGGIECAKES :( 1 WHOLE WEEK NO CONTACT SIA :(:(:(:(

LOLS" gonna put mask for him again when he's back :) LUBLUB !

cheers!

DEADOLL.

iim never gonna leave you ..

2009-10-12T22:48:00.005+08:00

wow .. so fast .. sch had started .. so fast ii have not been speaking to my dearest mum for half a yr ..

1 morning at 9am when iim slping .. sis called ..

"where is my bast coat ???"
"erms .. with me .."
"why is it with you ??"
"err .. its in my bag .."
"why is it in your bag ??? this kinda things we share one . you have to ask my permission 1st !"
"sorry .. ii'll pass to you later .."
"later is when ??! at night ??!"
"in the afternoon.."
"ii noe sometimes you dun come back . But ii hope you won't take this place for granted .."

ii wanted to sms her .. ii didn't take that place for granted .. ii just duno wadd that place became to .. ii broke down .. felt as if iim drowning in my tears as ii thought hard how much ii missed my mum .. andriel woke up and didn't noticed miie crying .. instead he thought ii drooled on the pillow -.- asshole .. den he went back to slp . ii couldn't slp anymore .. saw my baby slping like a dead log .. ii forced myself back to slp too ..

we went to watch the tsunami show .. alamak . ii cry again .. cos its about family love again .. den ii thought of my mum immediately .. couldn't stop tearing .. just wondered like .. if mum's gone like that .. iim just gonna cry too .. cos there's nth ii can do already .. but it feels so wierd if ii were to go home and like "ma , ii love you" .. she'll probably ignore miie as usual -.-

iim glad that eggiecakes here with miie :) not every single day not every single second .. but .. good enough .. one shouldn't be too greedy but contented yea ..

we went shopping too .. ah bb bought miie new shoes , eyelashes and a mphosis top that ii changed on the spot again .. hahhs" he almost bought miie a pair of aldo boots .. iim like "NO! you're crazy .. think you print money arhhs ?? you not heart pain . ii heart pain lehhs " ii rather get it myself when ii take my pay or something .. unless you earn like ALOT den ofcos ii shall not decline the offer . hahhs"

we wentt to eat sushi before he booked in .. happy :) so long since we last ate sushi . hehes .. at 1st ii was hesitating cos its not very cheap .. but he said until damn emo .. want to enjoy his last few hrs of the day with miie .

my eggiecakes gonna miss miie hell lots :(
ii miss you too .. be strong my dear ..

regina and miie :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

PCB .

2009-10-08T22:59:00.004+08:00

ii've got sooooo many shit to complain & sooooo many sweeties to talk about .. anyway .. ii'll start from this miumiu bag .. my colleague's selling it at $1500 .. anybody interested can email miie .. & incase you duno my email or duno how to spot where's my email on this page , etml_22@hotmail.com cheers! :)

my weekend with eggiecakes .. we ate pizzahut tgt for the 1st time :) sounds dumb but well , both of us are always occupied till we can't really sit down and eat and enjoy ..

ii wentt to see the doc for my rashes .. caused by my stresses in life thus explains the outbreakk .. den we head to hougang mall to do my pedicure .. felt so cheated larhhs .. it started from $20 .. den later the

stupid mic ask "miss , you want to apply base coat ? additional $3 ..
deadoll "huhhs? not included mehhs ?"
later. ....
stupid mic "miss you want to apply fast coating top coat ? additional $3 ..
wahhs pua .. wadd farkk up procedure is this man ? add this one add that one not the $30 liiaos .. nice business -.-

*mic - made in china

ur smile always melts my heart :)

duno why when ii snap this photo , you gave miie the supermodel pose siia .. LOLS"
but ii lublub :)

you long hair nice .. you botak also nice .. cos ah bb is still ah bb :)
HAPPY 5MTHS ! yea .. ppl will always love to comment ..
"5mths only , still honey moon larhhs" or
"aiiya , still early .. "

yes , ii understand its only 5mths .. but my ex boss and his wife 6mths tgt den married until now got 2 kids lehhs .. how can you explain love man ? stfu larhhs .. ppl outside 2yrs , 4-5yrs , 8-10yrs tgt end up also split .. why ppl tgt a few mths , get married some more .. still last till forever .. ii think no one can judge love on the surface isn't it ? so unfair to those lovebirds .. hahhs"

ytd miie and the clique went to powerhouse again .. this time trouble broke out by the girl named evelyn . my senior in cvss .. dun really noe who the farkk she is but ii saw her tons of times .. didn't even realise she's from my sch until my friend told miie so .. crazy bitch!

my buddy shawn !!! :) so long nv see him liiaos .. hahhs" happy siia .

okiies story telling rolls in ...

this evelyn claimed that some guy molested her butt .. den as a girl , if you think a guy molested you , will you whack the guy ? OR BE SO FARKING STUPID TO SCRATCH MY GIRLFRIEND'S FACE ? still can say the guy stand beside us means our ppl .. knn .. got beard one is ur father isit ?? doesn't make sense at all ..

den we saw fiona was like crying over her face .. didn't noe wadd happened .. we wentt out to hear her .. ohhs .. that bitch scratched her face for no reason .. so the tipsy berdd dragged mag into the club and find that bitch .. ii asked her so nicely "y you beat my friend ?"
"I WHERE GOT BEAT YOUR FRIEND ?"
"if you didn't beat , den come out talk larhhs .. here too noisy "
"HUHHS ? HUHHS ?" (cb . kept huh-ing miie like iim speaking to an idiot)
den she started going bonkers "NOT HAPPY ISIT!?"

ii said "not happy come out talk larhhs . so angry for wadd ?"

den from there we argue until she tried to hit miie .. after failed attempts .. she finally grabbed my hair .. nvm .. ii slapped her back lorhhs .. logical wadd .. ppl beat you still give ppl beat mehhs . some more by this kinda low life hooligan .. den her GUYFRIEND hit miie .. there the climax coming ...

ii rushed out with mag and kp to stanley they all "GOT GUY HIT ME LEHHS !"
den ii was so dumb enough to think that my head was damp with alcohol .. ii still ask mag "ehhs , why my head wet wet one arhhs ? got beer arhhs ?"

den regina and mag saw the blood trickling down my neck .. blood spills trouble ..

off to find the bouncer to drag that sonofabitch out who hit miie .. (cos only smart ppl won't waste energy trying to ask a farkktard who hit miie to come out) ..

mag asked "you want black or white?"

ii was totally jammed ... ii was in pain .. ii was so tired .. ii was tipsy .. kept calling jon for advice but apparently he told miie to forget it .. nice friend ii got .. damn angry .. ii wished andriel was there at that moment to decide and solve this unfornate shit that had happened .

REGRETS.

1. the evelyn got away cos ii darted at the martha fcuker who hit miie .

she told fiona "club is like that one marhhs .. ii scratch you ii say sorry okiies ."
how nice if fiona can give her 2 tight SCARS on her face and then just apologise "opps . sorry!"

HELL LOTTA BULLSHIT BITCH .

2. after stanley returned that blow to that sonofabitch .. he asked miie "can anott ?"
ii said can :(
ii should say "NOT ENOUGH .. until ii see blood"

next time .. ii will try to think fast man . & ii should've called the police but cos ii dislike the idea of calling parents if there is . ii mean parents slping den police call "hello sir , ur daughter was in some kinda fight at the club" .. & parents will like "huhhs?" blur blur still stuck in wonderland . lols"

but waste alot of time larhhs . ii still got work man .. farkiing slp 2hrs okiies ..

andriel called miie straight at 5.22am to check if iim okiies .. ii noe he was worried sick .. can't imagine if mag text him "andriel , berdd in hospital" .. lols" interestiing ..

my colleagues say ii stupid didn't report police .. ii pray hard to the good old lord up there that that martha fcuking bastard will get a good eye sore man till he cannot recognise where he lives . disgusting face .. & the bitch . low life thing .. she got away with it okiies .. must be gleaming with a smurk on her face .. its okiies .. heard that she only use violence and not negotiate .. pathetic nonsense .. hahhs"

cheers!
DEADOLL.

COOKIE JAR !

2009-10-05T02:11:00.007+08:00

WEDNESDAY : POWERHOUSE WITH MY MATES ! :)
(regina , ivy , aloysius , howard , stanley , dennis , desmond and fiona )

THURSDAY : MEET UP WITH BABE REGINA ! :)

did a french manicure :)

bought a coach clutch ( that regina psycho miie to buy ) .. hahhs"

SATURDAY : DINNER WITH AUNT JEAN / SPARKLES WITH REGINALOYSIUS :)

andriel's mummy not easy to please when it comes to food o.0
we ate at kim gary's restaurent .. we rate a 1/5 man :(
but we had desserts at bakezin :)

pretty great weekend that we've enjoyed :)

eggiecakes .. ii love you ..

cheers!
DEADOLL.

PRETTY BOOM & HANDSOME COCK :)

2009-09-29T00:25:00.003+08:00

damn .. ii feel like a kid bout wadd iim gonna say .. I MISS MY EGGIECAKES BADLY :(
he missed call at 8.09pm .. den 8.11pm ii saw so ii called him & he said he was going to bed soon .. aww man .. ii feel like crying cos iim working and ii can't talk for long ... when he put down the phone ii damn emo till ii knocked off .. when ii go smk outside 7-11 .. ii blasted believe by yellowcard into my ears .. den ii heard someone saying andriel's name .. ii turned my head immediately ... asshole .. its randy ...

den ii teared .. ii couldn't hold back anymore .. ii missed him so much .. nowadays he kept calling miie his wife .. hear already lagi worse .. want to hug him so badly .. very fast .. ii can tahan ! now counted as tuesday .. 4 more days only .. 2day over liiaos .. den wed ladies nyte for mag's birthday .. but ii state the criterias very clearly .. den thur den fri den sat ! :D

2da after work ii met nanshun .. my old friend .. talked about andriel .. talked about army & somebody else .. still rmb back then when all of us are still working part time .. now he got full time job liiaos .. treat miie coffee & cheesecake .. hahhs" den we cab back home ..

a pity .. if back then , she knows how to think .. she would be happy that she'll be graduating with a dip next yr .. & that she has a capable bf .. unlike now .. how could someone who's always the most beautiful in my heart turned so ugly ? turned into someone so different that ii could barely recognise ..

iim waiting patiently for my bestfriend aka my love aka my husband to book out on sat :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

GUNS 'N' ROSES

2009-09-25T19:58:00.001+08:00

don't why .. one day ii went to wiki about guns and roses then kept listening to their songs .. wow .. didn't realise axl rose was a hotty when he was young .. hahhs" he reminded miie of someone .. but well , now ii have my rocker here in my heart .. can't wait to see him next sat .. ii wonder if ii'll break down again when ii see him ..

see my ah bb .. hahhs"

we wentt to SGH A&E to check his back .. lols" den ii found out A&E is also Andriel & Elizabeth .. wahahhs" x) okiies . iim lame ..

we kept laughing & laughing cos we snapped photos with the mask .. fun marhhs .. hehes .. den wed ii wentt to powerhouse again for ladies night .. my god .. FARKKING BORING can ! we queued 2hrs for the drinks .. queue until dulan .. den stupid mag brought her guy friend along .. somemore ii duno him one .. she really haven grow up .. very very naive .. so hard to talk to her .. cos she cannot understand one .. 1 ear in 1 ear out ..

iim always advising her , trying to help her .. but she ultimately will be back to sq 1 .. walaus .. tired siia ... den her "good friends" gina & eileen also not right .. say until so generous give mag drink .. end up also dun have .. mag , nice friends you've got o.0

ii truly learnt my lesson .. for the 1st time ii somehow depended on ppl at the club .. expect ppl to treat miie drinks .. ii cnt take it man .. duno y mag can go arnd asking for drinks .. ii noe she's being nice want to get drinks for miie .. but ii just dun like the feeling like ii have to beg for drinks lorhhs .. ii can't do such thick skin things man .. & her friends act nice only larhhs .. dun wear such a big hat when ur head is so small !

ii think my qingling even better arhhs o.0 next wk is mag's birthday but ii will opt out if she choose to celebrate with her friends .. ii rather go club with ppl ii noe & ppl whom ii noe NOT farkked up .. agi agi agi agi agi agi agi !

cheers!

DEADOLL.

believe .. we'll be strong ..

2009-09-18T00:30:00.004+08:00

we had our dinner at andriel's dad's place before he gets in .. it was a bit rushy cos we need to send jacque off to london .. but its a sweet one :)

before dinner he gets one ...

after dinner ii got mine x)

at nyte , ii crazily tong his hair while he's playing wow .. hahhs" anyway its gonna be shaved .. y not .. so lets see AUNTIE FONG .. lols"

chio bo ? like 80s rocker dude anott ?? LOLS"

the last photo before he enter army .. he looked sad horhhs .. the smile half farkk one .. want to smile canot smile properly one .. aiiyos ..

wed nyte is ladies nyte .. mag & miie wentt off to powerhouse cos my good friend aeroplane miie .. nice . ohhs well .. since iim half way doing my hair & mag's on the way , we shall not waste any chance ..

so long didn't club with her ler larhhs .. missed her nonsense man :) farkking waited 1hr plus for our drinks and ii think we took 15min to drink up the whole shit of 1 jug , 2 heineken & 2 breezers .. she stole my jug btw .. its supposed to be half half & not 1/4 & 3/4 okiies -.-

Believe - Yellowcards

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive
But you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing, only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go, the life that you know, just to bring it down alive
And you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Wanna hold my wife when I get home
Wanna tell the kids they'll never know how much I love to see them smile
Wanna make a change or two right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day

ii love you eggiecakes . when ii heard this song .. ii thought of you immediately .. can't wait to see you this sat .. lublub :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

may it be eternity ..

2009-09-12T00:15:00.004+08:00

on this coming monday , my eggiecakes is entering army . not sure if ii'll go bonkers but .. ii'll love him still for sure .. ii think its really great that god gave miie this 2yrs of time to test my patience .. ii've never date anyone who's in army before .. an old friend of mine , nan shun said ii would definitely leave my ah b like someone .. but ii somehow strongly disagree ..

ii haven tried before .. wadd's more .. ii have lotsa things ii wanna do .. ii want to earn money , save money , find my career path and beautify myself .. knowing that someone ii dearly love is not farkking arnd , sticking his eyeballs to his comp or worse gone with another bitch , is in camp undergoing some shitty training .. shouldn't ii as a girl feel safe ? every wkend ii'll be waiting for him at home with his mum .. ii do feel excited ..

yes and definitely ii'll feel 10times more lonely than ever ! but well , magmag is waiting for miie :) my friends are still arnd .. ii doubt it won't be that bad .. wadds more , life will be the same .. studying & working .. when the hols are here , ii'll work more as usual .. probably after work or so , ii'll meet up with magmag or some other friends .. iim turning 20 soon .. if ii dun be independent and have a farkked up thinking like "my bf in army , ii siians . find new bf" .. waalaauus . might as well just kill myself man !

ii told myself this .. ii will support him for 2yrs and he shall support miie for the rest of my life . hahhs! we hope we'll be together for our life time too ryte ah b ? :)

RANDOM : andriel and zariel practising while ii'm trying to revise my business law .. hahhs"

RANDOM : my handsome cock .. lols"

ah bb .. ii duno if this is the last post you might read before you enter army cos iim always very busy and tired to blog already .. but no matter wadd , we'll always be lublub okiies .. dun think so much .. every wkend as usual ii'll be at ur place waiting for you with aunt jean .. 2yrs very fast one .. can't wait for you to ord .. hahhs" we've so much plans in mind to do tgt :)

lub you this pootpoot.dabian.elephant.monkey.handsomecock.eggiecakes.ahbb :)

cheers!

DEADOLL.

BAYBEATS with andrielizabeth (:

2009-09-02T00:21:00.004+08:00

soooooooo sorry dearies .. its not ii dun wanna blog .. its cos whenever ii wanna blog .. blogger gets farkked up den ii can't blog .. those ppl who encounter will get wadd ii mean :) anyway .. life is a bliss with andriel once more .. but well .. life is getting tougher as my days pass ..

dad's license got suspended .. that means he got no car , no income .. for the 1st time ii gave dad money outta my own pocket .. ii saw his smile .. my tears nearly dropped .. ii got my pay from Jeric Salon .. amazingly much more than wadd ii earned working at asian cuisine .. but you noe .. god is very fair .. when ii was working at asian cuisine aka nasi lemak stall .. dad still gives miie money ... but once my job has changed .. dad got outta job temporarily .. which means ii have to support daddy too ...

so now .. iim supporting mum & dad .. & myself .. mum & ii are still not talking .. so ii feel very lonely now .. often not at home .. sometimes ii stay at andriel's place too . its really sad when iim at home .. nobody talks to miie except dad maybe .. but when iim not at home .. ii feel very unfilial and emo ... sigh ..

work is fun with julie at bugis :) ii run about .. sometimes iim at ion orchard .. sometimes at plaza singapura and sometimes at bugis .. but sometimes work is not fun at all when shit happens ..

eg. stylists or assistants help to serve the customers in to sit .. BUT they didn't serve magazines nor serve them drinks . walaus .. its equivalent to shit already , wiped ur butt & not wear ur pants . so stupid can -.-

wentt to baybeats with eggiecakes! :) got to know some band like the great spy experiment , flawed element , zero sequence and anberlin .. pretty cool man .. lotsa ppl went to this gig ! we went for all 3 days .. but not for all the performances .. like for friday we went in the late evening .. probably 8plus .. den sat we went for the flawed element at 6.30 .. den sun we went for anberlin after my work :)

we wentt orchard central and walked about .. saw this really comfy area .. ah b sat down & didn't wanna get up .. hahhs"

wentt to cine for movie . we watched final destination .. yuppx .. paid $8 to view gruesome stuffs .. hahhs" also not ii wanna watchh .. some ah b want to watch one marhhs .. before the movie , we went to arcade to play some games .. saw kell :) long time no see her! hahhs" snapped a photo with her .. just for rememberance :) damn! my hair was awful .. regretted not ironing my fringe all thanks to some eggiecakes ..

cheers!

DEADOLL.

we shall bury ur past :)

2009-08-11T00:56:00.004+08:00

my 3rd mth wasn't a splendid one . ii woke up at 12pm at baby's . he cooked miie breakfast :)

LOVELY :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

& den its time to clean up ! hahhs"

den ....... things start to turned bad .... how would you feel if ur bf's ex came msning him saying "ee .. you wantt ppl to suck ur tongue just like how ii kissed you last time" .. WTF ? just becos his msn nick was a song title "suck my kiss" .. WALAUS .. filthy biatch ! dun you farkiing noe he has a gf & that means farkk off ? how we wantt to smootch is none of ur farking business ryte ? pcb .. fugly fat biatch ! BETTER STAY AWAY FROM MY ANDRIEL ! ii dare you test my patience 1 last time . PCB .................

my bob got his lesson already .. ii cant wait to lay my hands on you biatch .. ROAR!!!!

enough of those unneccessary nonsense .. & so my 3rd mth was pretty screwed up .. waited for mag to come before ii can finally move my butt outta serangoon with swollen eyes no make up and stupid andriel's clothes on .. lols"

head to aburiya at robertson quay .. my sweetie mag treat miie some good food but unfortunately ii couldn't eat at all .. my appetite was screwed up too .. ii can't stop crying .. ii can't stop thinking of that asshole ..

looked good anott ??

my photos are not that good . waiting for mag to send miie :)

my sweetheart .. iim so glad ytd was over .. it was the most terrifying day we could've been thru .. we could've been quits for over the wrong reasons .. but iim glad .. its really over .. its really not worth being so agi , so angry , so hurt for some biatch who tries to trip over my line .. but den again .. if it wasn't for ytd , we wouldn't feel stronger :) ii love my bob as always! lublub :)

cheers!

DEADOLL.

you love miie you love miie not

2009-08-05T23:50:00.002+08:00

met my magmag some day .. we talked alot :) missed her as always .. ii noe she's waiting for ah b to go in army so she can club with miie . LOLS"

CUTE anot ?? she did this crazy action & ii insisted to take a picture of her .. hahhs"

ah b bought miie my 3rd mth gift .. shocked miie surprised miie .. ii was uber happy arhhs .. so now miie & wifey got same bag .. mine is the brown hers is the black :)

my clique . and some extra .. hahhs"

my wife and daughter ..

last but not least .. ah b and ii wentt to asian beat competition on sat ..

his hair damn straight ryte ? hahhs! cos ii borrowed the iron from julie .. some of his friends thought he rebonded his hair .. lols"

recently ii think things are pretty smooth for miie .. sch as normal .. work as normal .. though ii duno y ii feel much more tiring .. but its worth it as long as ii see $$$ .. hahhs" ii work hard ofcos must pay off larhhs .. walaus .. unlike some ppl .. work 2yrs in that company already still take miie for granted .. nb .. good lorhhs .. luckily ii was spotted :) wahahhs"

& iim so god damn glad that the new recep - chanel is GONE FOR GOOD! (wadd a nice name for a wrong person btw) omfg .. so ah lian can ! even if you have the most terrible english you can ever speak just say it in the nicest way ... you noe how she farkking speak to customers ?? with all the singlish! walaus .. hello?? you working in ION ORCHARD lehhs .. you think in ur neighbourhood kpt mehhs ? siia suay .. so glad that jeric fired her . woo!

the new recep at bugis ain't any better ii guess .. got farkiing huge boobs , got a pretty face with no brains .. could hardly speak proper english too . terrible terrible terrible .. looked like another vain pok .. ii mean you're iin a service line you noe ? & the least she could've done was SMILE . unfortunately she didn't made use of her pretty face .. too bad ..

wahhs .. iim goiing to study hard & work hard man .. earn lotsa money & buy all the things ii wanted all along :):):):):):):):) wahahhs"

ohhs dear .. its really fast .. in a mth's time ah b going army lerhhs .. but ii can't wait for him to ord :) horhhs ? LUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUBLUB ..

cheers!
DEADOLL.

who am ii ?

2009-07-27T00:08:00.006+08:00

Jeric Salon was opened in ION on 21st July :) after work , colleagues & ii head down to the outlet for a mini celebration .. these roses are beautiful ..

there they are toasting .. 5 outlets of ppl .. some even not present ..

chanel was the 1st colleague ii noe .. but she'll be at Ion ..

this is rick & julie (juliana for short) .. hahhs" rick wanted a shot .. so y not ? :)

as for miie , ii got myself a new look too :):):):):) miko cut for miie !

met darling .. den movie den home ..

sorry for the few words that ii've briefly described .. ii dun have the mood to really blog now .. iim angry , sad & tired ..

I HATE THE BLUE BIRD!

& you'll never noe wadd's inside miie .

iim not surprised if 1 day ii lost you to dota , wow & maybe the blue bird ..

I HATE THOSE FARKING GAMES TOO!

but ii always let you play while iim silently cursing & swearing ..

ii've got lots to say .. but not today .. iim tired ..

cheers!
DEADOLL.

when you look me in the eyes ..

2009-07-12T16:14:00.012+08:00

our 2nd month was a lovely sweet one .. after sch ii wentt to andriel's place .. we made cards for each other .. it was amazing .. we both love it :)

this was made by lovely andriel .. the "Bob" so cute larhhs .. blue cotton balls .. very simple but ii like it still .. though ii commented that its plain but ii still like it cos he made it himself :)

okiies .. so it hit the spot that pisces r generally more creative right ? hahhs" yea .. this was made by miie to him :):):)

on saturday .. we wentt "camping" at ECP with his friends .. we finally wore our couple singlets .. hahhs" we left to baby's place at arnd 2am ...

the perfect shot for the day :)

on a friday night .. we wentt dinner with andriel , his mum , zariel , suet and faiz .. den we left to town .. ii was slpy .. but ii dun feel like going home .. it was a friday night man .. so ii kinda dragged baby to bugis (despite having a bad pain in his ass) .. hahhs" but luckily we did .. we saw flea markets . ii bought a dress .. den baby heard performances nearby .. he got excited & so we headed there :)

BRILLIANT! we didn't regretted .. & luckily we came across here (by luck) .. cos we scissors paper stone .. if ii win , we shall walk towards dhoby ghaut .. if he win , we'll take a bus .. LOLS"

a short 3min clip that ii took .. nice :)

work was interesting .. ii've got lots to learn .. challenging to miie as iim still learning how to handle customers .. so not use to it .. but ii like my job .. tiring in a way .. fun in a way .. relac in a way ..

after work , baby fetched miie & he thought esplanade there got performance but think it ended already .. so we sat there & chill .. it looked like its in the day .. hahhs"

one night , baby surprised miie with this !

so sweet larhhs . he go copy the "absolute boyfriend" .. ii watched it very long ago but ii intro him den he got hooked up on the show .. den he surprised miie with an egg wrapped with fried rice .. hahhs"

den later he made miie angry .. he started to cam-whore .. lols"

when you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

try this on straightjacket feeling ...

2009-07-10T17:15:00.007+08:00

shopping day on last thur with babycakes! & jon :)

guess wadd they're doing ?? they are playing "scissors paper stone" .. & loser eats the fries . lols" cos we're all full .. hahhs"

we got ourselves a couple heineken singlet & ripcurls slips .. awesome! :):):):):)

den on friday , we hanged out again .. after their drum set-up .. we head to eat at taka .. & ii recommended them "ambush" :) daniel brought miie there in sec2 .. missed him man! long time no see ..

babycakes! :) & jon .. jon looked like he's snapped for some match-making session ehhs ? hahhs" so he's 19 & single .. anyone ? lols" =X

& the beat goes on .. hahhs"

TATA! lols"

& ii tied this on babycakes! while waiting for jon .. hahhs" x)

on monday , ii met jacque after sch :) & we made some nice oreo cheesecakes but it didn't turned out well though she said it tasted nice :)

lols" the yoke looked so cute ..

jacque & cheryl :)

so wadd about miie ryte ? ii've been showing pics & pics & pics over many of my past posts .. well . ii'm outta pasta mania & asian cuisine (like finally after 2yrs!) .. yea .. next .. iim going to have my training at reds salon as a receptionist .. now its named jeric salon btw .. its a new thing for miie cos ii've NEVER been a receptionist before .. always in F&B in my whole life .. & maybe a mth in sales line .. so iim afraid .. hahhs" can't wait to see & experience it next week .. wish miie lucks man! :)

life in sch ain't that cool anymore .. my wife is not really talking to miie .. & ii still duno y .. its really sad you noe .. when ppl thinks you're in the wrong but you dun even noe why .. like my mum .. she's still at it .. being pissed with miie for the past 2mths .. & den dad's not very happy too . cos mum's not happy . den my bro & sis .. ii duno .. ii only speak to them once in mths ..

ii wonder when things will be better for miie . ii miss sylvia .. ii mean the crazy wife ii used to be with .. so many crazy stuffs we did tgt .. & we used to stick like glue .. && ii HATE that 3rd party who's not helping at all .. instead pushing miie away like its meant to be .. cheebs!!

ii miss my mum .. so many things ii wanna tell her .. so many .. too many .. but we're quits .. damn ..

ii miss magmag .. but she still loves miie :) hahhs"

isit just PMS or isit just you ?!

2009-06-29T02:49:00.002+08:00

ii wanted to blog about a happy event but iim all fumed up ! ii shall continue that post another day .. ii duno isit miie just feeling uber cranky over my period or its you this asshole who blew miie up .. either or .. iim unhappy! & if you can't farkking be bothered , so be it !

y iim feeling down when we're walking to the busstop ? now ii tell you here! ii wanted to tell you over skype of something but ii can't bring myself to open my farkiing mouth . when iim fumed , ii'll either keep my mouth shut or ii'll farkiing hurl lotsa shit at you till you explode!

cos you're talking about another girl in ur life(again) .. telling miie the whole family & you so close .. telling miie how close you & her parents were .. telling miie how close you & her siblings were .. wadd else you wanna tell miie ? how many nights you spent there ?? CHEEBS .. call miie sensitive or waddeva but ii just dun have the farkiing mood to listen to you & another girl's story . ur bestfriend in fact .. waddeva ..

& ii always wanted to tell you everytime we walk from the other exit down to dhoby mrt .. iim always reminded of ur ex gf . becos of those photos you & ur fwens took there .. its fresh in my farkiing head .. so you still wanna tell miie more about any other girls in ur life that will affect miie & my emotions . go ahead .. iim typing this stupid post like iim some psychotic bitch who's trying to spoil my lappy .

& before my menses came , ii told you ii ain't in a good shape .. ii told you ii got pms already . since you wouldn't budge & think before you open ur farkiing mouth . TOO BAD . iim ranting here ! ii dun care ! even if ii cry till my head explode , ii dun care ! ii dun care ! farkk you , maple & dota .

ii really hate my bf to play computer games .. ii didn't say its wrong to play games . you say it urself & ii saw ur stupid qn coming ! but when iim at work , at home , at ur place , YOU'RE STILL PLAYING UR STUPID GAME . god damn it ! when iim slping , doing my hmw , smking . waddeva . YOU'RE STILL PLAYING UR STUPID GAME .. for hrs & hrs & hrs .. you can be so sad over some maple shit & ain't for miie ! THANKS . its not like ii didn't give you space for ur game .. you're testing my patience too much & it is running low .. cheebs .......................

you must be thinking "y can't you just let miie play now when ii can talk to you for the rest of our lives .. "

okiies , den ii'll say "y dun you continue ur farkked up game when you hit 80 since the technology never dies .."

givemeabreakgivemeabreakgivemeabreak
caresomuchforwad?????? ask ur motherfcuking maple to wake you up in future okiies ? or maybe sugar dota will .

DEADOLL.

your nymphetamine girl ? lols"

2009-06-29T01:07:00.009+08:00

HOLLA! its saturday! its jonathan's bday! WOO~
wentt to marina sq. for dinner at soeul garden .. wahhs .. 2nd time in my life ii ate soeul garden larhhs .. lols" & also , we watched transformers! powerpack ii tell you .. damn damn nice but ii kinda forget the part one already =X opps. anyway ...

andy, his gay for the nyte . lols" & of cos the bday boy himself on the right :)
you're finally 19 jon ! weeping* hahhs"

randy kor kor! & his pretty gf .. she's really pretty when she smile .. but too bad , she doesn't like to take photos .. can see she trying to siam the cam .. hahhs"

ian bro & jacque .. sweet funny couple :)

this is andriel's bowl of fudge-full icecream .. see already no appetite . lols" but he loves it o.0

LOLS" ii made him take this farkktard pic with jacque's flower xD

& den , we made the bday boy do it too ! LOLS" really hilarious when jon was trying to fit the flower behind his ears while also making sure that his hair is fine too ..
& den .. here comes the sick part .. hahhs" randy went to kiss/lick his ear . LOLOLS"
they almost turned the restaurent upside down ..

poor jon .. dying to wipe his ear clean . hahhs"

hehes .. when we're going home .. we cam-whored alittle .. andriel looked funny .. like he got shocked or something ..

LubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLub
LubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLubLub :)

baby , you looked ill .. lols"

Great time hanging with you guys :)

cheers!

DEADOLL.

bob's philosophy : no comp will die . no berdd nvm . LOLS"

2009-06-21T14:28:00.007+08:00

Friday! = Relax day! = berdday! x)
But jon wantts andriel to hang out .. so ii kinda managed to get him :) hahhs" worked till 2.30pm . den wentt to meet my bob .. den later jon came .. we wentt off to meet jacque & ian in town .. we're heading to jacque's friend's place :)

you saw the horror (the bob in the middle) didn't you ??? use dettol .. more efficient than soap . LOLS"

while waiting at the bus stop for her friend to reach home .. both of them agi siia .. shouting at each other on the phone . lols"

my sweetie pie :)

at her place , we played games .. card game called "taboo" . you're supposed to describe the word that is stated on the card w/o using the 5 helping words that will help you describe ..

like e.g. the word is "KAYA TOAST" den some of the helping words are bread , ya kun , etc .. (ii could currently think of 2 only ) . yea so , you can't say them .. you just have to find ur own descriptions .. & it really drives miie crazy .. cos it made miie so stupid when ii couldn't think of any other way to describe . MY GOD! really demoralised miie inside .. totally testing my knowledge siia .. nb ..

& den , ii cheered up .. started to snap some pics to make myself feel even better ..

we were hungry .. but didn't eat much ii guessed .. cos ii got myself cup noodles to her place .. hahhs" jacque's frying scrambled egg .

the guys were playing play station ..

when we're walking through cine , ii saw my ex bf .. with a gurll who looked disgusting from the back , carrying a louis vuitton bag .. ii was pretty uncomfortable den when ii saw her carrying the LV bag .. ii duno y .. ii suddenly got the thought "wow , he noe rich gurlls siia . or isit he buy one?" but when ii looked at my bob .. ii noe ii am happy . & thats the most impt thing .. money can't buy real happiness indeed .. & ii didn't regret :) maggie said ii carrying mulberry bag also won't lose to her wadd .. LOLS" really cute of her when she said that ..

Saturday! is my pageant day at city harvest church . it was only MJ zone's competition .. dun ask miie wadd's MJ .. ii duno also .. cos ii ain't part of the christ family yea ..

magmag accompanied miie all the way :) LOVESLOVESLOVES

my partner , jun xiang

during the votes .. pris drew a pic of miie! so sweet larhhs :) N234 really gave miie their fullest support .. A BIG THANK YOU TO N234 :D

den my queue initially only pris & felicia larhhs . damn cham ehhs ! den andriel & jon was behind .. ii could hardly see them .. den suddenly my queue became the longest . lols" cos heard from seth that he shouted "oi ! nobody to queue isit ? go 1st row" den those bengs & lians come queue at my lane .. LOLS" anyhow ehhs ..

the finalists :)
1st 2 gurlls from the left is tertiary finalists . the pink lady is the judge , miss singapore ii think .. den the gurll on my left got the 1st in secondary cat. den beside her the short hair lady is one of the judges too .. the last 2 gurlls are secoundary finalists ..

& well .. ii top tertiary cat. :D hahhs" action only .. yea , & ii won myself a $50 topshop voucher .. hahhs"

when ii do the catwalk , ii got stagefright lorhhs .. almost died man! lols" my heart was pounding like pounding chilli .. hahhs"

after everything , went over to my bob's place to put my stuffs .. den we head out to marina sq.

OHHS! ii saw fire works! guessed its the national day rehearsal ..

LubLubLubLubLubLubLub BobFong :)
DEADOLL.

learning to look things on the brighter side ..

2009-06-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

2da met up with magmag! :)

supposed to meet her at 1pm .. but ii couldn't wake up (all thanks to some stupid idiotic elephant bob fong bo that made miie cry until 4plus am! but ohhs well .. we're smiley now aren't we ?)
so ii met her at 2pm (sooo sorry!) .. mos burger at compass point .. den we head to haji lane window shopping . den to bugis street .. bought a skirt from peggy's new launched shop "signify" .. hahhs" for my pageant :)

& ohhs .. not forgetting .. ii bought myself a purse ! ii like :)

ii super duper admire at how she can look at situations .. even when she got out of job .. she's not sad at all .. wow .. if its miie ii duno emo until like wadd farkk already .. now ii work so little ii already emo lorhhs . den she no money also like damn happy everyday like that .. maybe ii should be a christian to be so happy like her .. LOLS"

waited for andriel & arsyad finish workk . met up with jon too .. lepak awhile .. den andriel & jon sent miie backk to sk den they bus-ed backk .. lols" finally my babycakes experienced wadd ii had - a bad experience of a bus ride in 156 .. hahhs! cos when ii took the last bus home 1 night .. the bus driver was like falling slp .. driving at 40km/hr .. FARKKING HELL s l o w .. & 2night he got the same driver .. hahhs!

yeahhs! ladies night - phuture here ii come :):):):)

lublub bob :)
DEADOLL.

ii felt like a fool ..

2009-06-15T01:40:00.003+08:00

yeahhs! ii finally got andriel's gift .. & ii uber love it larhhs!

ain't my honey sweet ?? :) simply love him to bits! hahhs"

LOLS" this monkey is just so him .. so hyper always .. so disturbing in all ways .. so entertaining .. iim nv bored with him :)

this kitty is just SOOOOOOOOO cute larhhs . when ii went to smk with jack . It just cuddle beside miie den slp on my lap .. omg . like as if iim it's owner :)

wentt to the pageant's rehersal ytd .. next wk is the actual day at expo .. those who goes to city harvest church pls do support miie . hahhs" on sat 2pm ! well .. ii joined for fun :)

den we rushed down to vivo to catch shern's performance .. ohhs man .. the crowd suckk . its just a wrong location . we bet that the crowd at cine would be much more happening than this .. but ohhs well .. we're happy to at least support him , right honey ? :)

on fri evening .. ii waited for andriel to finish his drum set-up at clementi for 2 god damn hrs .. but guess wadd ? ii ain't pissed man ! iim all smiley when ii saw him .. ii read the magazine for 1hr .. den ii touch up my makeup .. bored till ii put on my falsies . praying hard that he won't suddenly appear when iim putting it on (if not he sure ask miie dun put) .. hahhs"

hahhs" he underestimated clementi lorhhs . said so loudly that clementi is a farkked up place .. only idiots live in clementi .. & when he said that , a blue shirt guy turned back & stared at him for a while . lols" he duno wadd is the meaning of kanna beaten .. hahhs"

after his thing , we were starving but we walked on the other side of the plaza .. & saw so many cool cool restaurents & pubs .. got seafood restaurent (though ii dun really fancy) .. the lobsters so farkiing huge ! thats when ii started mocking at him .. cos back then he said something like clementi is a farkked up place .. boring place .. for old ppl .. but wadd we explored back there was happening ! hahhs" DUMB DUMB .

to my good friend .. ii sincerely appreciate you .. for waddeva you've done to help miie .. the only thing ii want to ask from you is to accept miie that clubbing , drinking & night life is my hobby . ii may not be able to save money like you .. but as long as iim happy enough to pass each day .. my life should be contented . if ii am happy the way it is .. y not you ? ii used to skip lessons very often in the past .. but ii believed ii've changed to a certain extend .. ii may always be late for sch .. but its just a habit of mine .. how bad can ii be ?

at least ii do pass my CAs & exams .. at least ii do my assignments & hand up in time now .. at least ii do put in effort to study though ii hate studying to the max. .. am ii really a hopeless person to you ? & its really heartbreaking to noe that you actually thought that ii got money dun1 to return you .. ii dun understand .. am ii such a person to you ? if you see a 50bucks in my wallet now . do you think y ii dun1 to return you ? or .. have you ever thought how that 50 is gonna last miie through the month ?

& its just saddening that you dun even talk to miie about how you feel about miie . instead . you bottled up every single shit & just totally ignore miie when you exploded .. ii felt like a fool . talking to you everyday not even knowing the cause of you ignoring miie .. felt so pityful when the entire clique followed ur steps & just treated miie like some kinda ahole .. wadd do ii noe ? damn ..

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ii hate this part right here ..

2009-06-10T23:25:00.005+08:00

wentt to sch with a smile ytd .. cos ..

090609 - andrielizabeth 1st mth anniversary (:
love you my bob !

made this myself . it was stunning okiies (:

2day morning got class bonding .. reached sch at 9am to eat big breakfast! hahhs" den we played games .. mostly organised by fadhil .. ii duno how to spell his name though .. quite fun larhhs . iim not a participant though cos ii committee member .. for th event at least .. hmms ..

this game was to guess the phrase while the person infront is acting out .. hahhs"

this one is the longest game .. the rule is to make use waddeva you have on hand & make a line as long as you can .. some ppl damn hiong can! take out belt , shoelaces , socks .. & even lied down .. LOLS" :D

IQT !

not forgetting , we spotted a monkey while playing the guessing game .. heard this monkey fierce one .. cnt agitate it . later snatch my cam jiu die arhhs .. hahhs"

recently after the business law project , sylvia ain't talking to miie that much anymore .. she didn't wait for miie anymore .. just kept talking to bella , fiona & jiamin .. & apparently iim transparent to her .. damn sad .. tried to talk to her but nth ii said will spark a conversation btw us .. she will just either smile or give miie a ending response .. like as if she dun1 to talk to miie anymore ..

haiis .......

ii pity myself .. ii loathe myself for being unable to open my heart & accept everything that had happened .. to not bear hatred and to let all grudges go .. ii miss fang hell lots ..

ii loathe myself for being unable to appreciative .. that at least ii saw andriel for the 10min for the whole day .. rather than be upset that he didn't do what he said .. that he will fetch miie after sch .. & fetch miie after work .. & sms miie & call miie .. instead is ii call & sms him . which by right ii shouldn't take it to heart at all .. good thing ii chose to emo instead of bombing zariel's phone or something .. its just complete stupidity !

ii loathe myself for being unable to control my temper & attitude .. so badly that my tcher actually praised miie for being hardworking & that ii always hand up assignments on time BUT ii have to get that attitude down .. by then , there will be peace & harmony in my family .. ii wouldn't always be having tiffs with my mum .. instead ii'll hong her .. make her happy like when she was working with miie at asian cuisine ..

ii loathe myself for being unable to take the smallest remarks or feedbacks about myself . like when karen wantt miie to push sales , ii would whine & complain .. like if ppl comments that ii look like hell . ii would go crazy & feel uber ugly .. feeling uneasy to carry on my work ..

2day is emo day .. ii need a drink =/
DEADOLL.

I'd swim the ocean for you .

2009-06-07T01:19:00.005+08:00

Life is such a bliss with andriel :)

we had our haircut at hougang den we bus-ed to macpherson to collect my cd .. den we go toa payoh sakae sushi !! :)

after makan , we go gai gai at hub .. spent more money at watsons .. back then , ii've spent arnd 70bucks buying mphosis(got sale!) , foundations (loreal & z.a.) & conditioner .. mine finishing lerhhs . dun think mama will buy .. she still rolling her eyes at miie . walaus! :(

den andriel brought miie to this 40storey building to see the scenery (yes, iim suaku!) :) the view was brilliant ! ii wished ii stay there man .. when you emo , you can just look out .. damn nice ! :)

the moon so bright ..

40 storey is scary lorhhs!

baby scare scare .. hahhs"

iim ur jello & you're my bob . LOLS"

not forgetting some of my nicest shots . the rest r ewww .. my eyelash extentions ruined it ! damn :(

ii happy to be with you my brainless bob :)

Now it's gonna get
it's gonna burn brighter
and it's gonna feel tougher each and every day
so let me say, that i love you
you're all I've ever wanted
all I've ever dreamed of to come
and yes you did come
i want you so bad (so bad)
can you feel it too? (it too)
you know I'm so, I'm so in love with you
i want you, so much
i need you, so much
i need your, i need your, your touch
and I'll swim the ocean for you
the ocean for you
whoa, oh Kelsey

DEADOLL.