♥ e.li.za.bethh.

.Thursday, November 12, 2009 ♥

shattered piece of life .. you're the only reason iim alive ..

haven been touching the laptop for god noes how long .. didn't wanna go home after work .. been calling ppl out for supper .. ii feel like screaming at this moment .. work is fine .. just that ii couldn't smile no more .. ii felt as if its been yrs since ii last saw andriel .. ii feel as if ii couldn't take it living anymore ... if time could stay .. ii want it to rewind to the days we go jamming .. when we will slack at esplanade enjoying the bands .. when we will appreciate music tgt at the baybeats ..

yes , iim looking forward to every wkend like you .
ii miss you andriel ..

DEADOLL.

LOVES ♥♥♥ 11/12/2009 12:51:00 AM

.Monday, October 26, 2009 ♥

I can hold my head up high, & its all because you're by my side

some more photos from regina's on friday's see sha ....

lols" not forgetting ii puke near andriel's place .. magmag brought miie home :) to andriel's home :) ii waited for him like crazy larhhs . 10.30 ii woke up already .. waiting for his call until 3plus when iim trying to force myself to slp .. the phone rang . its my cakes ! ii quickly went to make up den go down cab to pasir ris to wait for my cakes :)
ur bunkmates must be jealous x)

though the wkend was short .. it doesn't matter .. we hugged each other tight to bed .. hoping that time will freeze .. he was exhausted from the 6days outfield camp trip .. but still struggles to be awake just to keep miie company .. we play either guitar hero or rockband . ii 4got .. he got both . so .. yea .. ii sang while he play the guitar .. the drum padder spoil .. so ii can't play :(

played till cakes say he tired . den ii realised his eyes were red .. it was only 11plus .. aww .. my poor baby ..

andriel's POP is in dec .. we can't wait .. we can't wait everything to be over .. when he'll be outta army .. when he'll be teaching drums for a living .. when we'll get married .. when we'll get our dream bungalow .. with his music studio in the basement .. filled with acoustic drums , guitars , keyboards , piano .. what have he ? when our toilets have tv and our bedroom have projectors .. when he has long hair & bangs like axel rose in our wedding photo .. when ii will sing & he'll play the drums .. when we have our kids ... when he's teaching them music .. when his kids are jamming in the basement studio ..

omg .. it sounds like a dream isn't it ? no .. ii want it to happen .. ii love you andriel .. & yes , iim urs forever .. just like wadd you said to miie everytime you hugg miie to slp :)

cheers!
DEADOLL.

LOVES ♥♥♥ 10/26/2009 10:48:00 PM

.Saturday, October 24, 2009 ♥

Are you still alive ? Are you scare inside ?

ii feel that .. in a r/s , the most impt thing is trust . if there's ain't no trust , then you're flopped .. ii find it so tiring and waste of time worrying whether my guy still loves miie whether he's cheating on miie .. whether he still borther bout his ex gf .. why there are still past pics left behind .. all this small little details , ii should say are sensitivity ..

ii've seen my friends with all kinds of r/s .. long distance , tgt for yrs but independent love , daily quarrels yet still loving .. waddeva .. you name it , ii guessed ii've seen it all .. but they still have trust ..

isn't it sad that if you're tgt with ur guy for a long time already , you still hafta worry bout so many things ?

ii trust andriel totally .. but it really really irritates miie when joycelyn hafta keep talking to him .. its like pretty constant man .. when those pics of ex love are still existing in his comp .. ii definitely feel uncomfortable but ii kept quiet for 3mths .. till this woman msn him a sentence that totally blew miie up HOT ..

ii shall wait & see his reaction when he comes backk ..

went to seesha with regina & clique ..

met her at her place 1st den head to amk hub .. supposed to take something light .. but ended up feeling full .. lols"

we really la kopi siia .. lols" reminds miie of andriel :(
ah bb . ii wonder wadd time you're coming outt . pls call miie soon . ur babycakes is waiting at ur place .. no .. at our place :)

magmag !

ii rmb the last time ii went see sha was with andriel , jon , inez , arsyad and zariel .. thats when ii feel the happiness of love in andriel's arms :)

went to have supper with fiona and des after work :)

SUPER MISS MY EGGIECAKES :( 1 WHOLE WEEK NO CONTACT SIA :(:(:(:(

LOLS" gonna put mask for him again when he's back :) LUBLUB !

cheers!

DEADOLL.

LOVES ♥♥♥ 10/24/2009 10:49:00 AM